You all think you know me
How can you all know me
When I don't even know me
Who I am
What I am
Where I am
How can you all understand me
When I don't even understand me
Oh I could blame it all on the drugs
And I could blame it all on the alcohol
But the tumble and fall
Started long before that
I had it all
A house, a life
A great job, a life
But I lost it all
Those were just things
Not really important
The important stuff
I lost long before my tumble and fall
I'm broken inside
Not sure if its my heart
Not sure if its just my head
But I am broken inside
The pills make me something I am not
A zombie staring at the wall
All the talking in the world
Will not make me whole
I'm broken inside
My brain as smart as it is
Cannot heal its self
I don't understand what happened to me
Why I cannot see through
All the darkness that is me
I don't know who I am
I don't know what I am
I don't know where I am
How can I understand
So why do I expect you to understand
I'm not sure it really matters
Pieces of me are scattered
I'm just waiting for me to shatter
I'm tough and I know this
But deep inside
I'll never be fixed
I'm broken

Ohhhh girl the thoughts of so many are in your
words and in your mind. Could it be we all think
this at one time or other in our lives? The one
thing that always seems to bring us back to
reality is our kids. Bless them for keeping us
together even if it is just for a little longer.
Maybe someday we can see threw the eyes of others
and how they see us.

You are wonderful and beautiful inside and out
Purity you emanate and make me believe
Your love is real and ever so true
Could you really tolerate this temper so rude?
A test of of fate could quickly tell
If my personality is too crude for you
the characters I fake, pretentious and lewd
Sometimes funny, intelligent and great
before you, I stand, trying to 'BE",
Hiding behind masks, perfect for you
Afraid you might see the monsters inside
The demons that chase me and make me crouch
They tell me constantly I'm not good enough for you
Try this - Try that
you can't be just "you"
Run, Hide, Scurry, away
don't let him see the things you've done
tread lightly, stay in the dark
It's safer here in the fire and strife
If he sees you and knows you, and you let him in
he'll want you no more, you really can't win
the demons whisper sins of the past
history you'll repeat if you give in to love's class
"Go Away," "Leave Me Alone," I SCREAM INTO THE NIGHT
I CAN'T BEAR THIS TORTURE ANYMORE
Reach out, Catch me, Save me, Block my path
I'm tired of running, I'm out of breath
Please don't let me go
I may put up a violent fight
This heart of mine is hard to take
I want to stay in this blissful haven
Wrap your arms around me,
Save me from myself

Wow.......thats all I can say....!