I'm sorry I wasn’t there at the end!
To see you in that box that night, it filled me full of fright.
My heart was heavy, my eyes filled with tears
Alone in a world filled with fear.

Now there is no one to walk with me
I walk alone as you can see.
The road is long and empty without you
my journey is not through.

I suffer the pain day to day
I think one day I'll go insane
I want to go and be with you
And end this misery I'm going through!

*pokes Rick* Ok stop makin me cry ....damn those were some powerful
words my friend..wow I am just blown away!!

i'm sorry ccp, they make me cry also...been a very long time and i just
keep truing to hold back the tears every time!!!

Doesn't matter how many years or months or days, the tears will always
come, its part of grieving Rick.

the only other death i can remember was my grandfathers, I still
remember who i cried, but i got over it.
when Diane died i cried some but not like I did for my grandfather, and
now 15 years later i still cry some and I can't seem to get over it.

be still our hearts...you moved us in oh so many ways with this works,we
hopes you find you hearts desire soon....M.

thank you 1313!

*hugs Rick*

thanks ccp,

i wish i could shake this sadness, but being here with all you guy seems
to be the only thing that keeps me from just loosing it.
I was fine when I was able to work but now , hell i just sit here with
too much time on my hands.

Well ya know if ya need anything just holla... I think alot us spend the
time we do on here simply so we don't have to be alone, at least we have
someone on the other end of this sayin hey and what not ya know what I
mean?

yea...what she said....holla...M.

thanks guy, this is good theropy!

Rick my heart goes out to you for all the pain you have
had to endure over the years. Things are looking up for
you in a way I know it might not seem that way at times
but just a little more time. When you get to get together
with Kim it might be a whole new world for you out there
that in time you have forgotton about. And it will come
rushing back to you like a river it will not make you
forget your pain but it will make it easier to deal with
each day. When you get to walk down that beach once again
holding hands with the one that you have found and fell
in love with you will see that there is a reason to look
into the future once more. She will bring pleasures into
your life that you have put aside as never being there for
you again. Best wishes for you Rick & I'm here also if you
every need to talk!!

ummmmm...yea, what Ms. Txs said...M.

Rick, Did you want to make me cry tonight? If ya wanna chat, ya know ya
can give me a shout...

this poem really hit home in my world...it reminded me of my sister...ok
i cant say that it didnt make me cry...it did....