alone in the dark
the midnight of my soul
my life has turned stark
will i ever be whole

gave my all it wasnt enough
the question still remains
why did i open up

i spiraled and sped
down the whirlpool of regret
to the sharks down there i fed
what little joy i had left

washed up to the shore
empty husk of a man
crawled up from the floor
to just fall down again

here i lay
broken and torn
i guess i will stay
wishing never to be born

kinda dark poem.
good though.
felt like that a few times in my life.
espeically before i was put on my happy pills after the whole postpartum
depression thing hit the hardest after baby number 4. Hid the depression
pretty well for about 9 years. Got it after baby number 1.

Oh but no matter how far we fall.
We must get back up and stand tall.
Even though it seems each day.
Love will not come your way.
You have a very special gift.
The little one you hold in life.
That was sent to you from God above.
Is real and will give you so much love.
Hold her tight and kiss her tonight.
She will make your world oh so bright.


I know even when things seems dark a childs love will help you through
the years. For they are the important ones in life. I've been in your
situation raising little ones all alone it is not easy but there love
does fill alot of lonely moments.

thanx txs.your a sweet sweet friend