Paradise Lost

You smiled at me.
For a moment, your eyes unlocked heaven.
And I felt something.
A tranquil yet subtle energy.
And I knew.

For I have always loved you.
No matter how hard you try,
I will always see you through.
Tomorrow is a new day,
and there is hope for something more.
And I never knew just what you had in store.

For there is a new beginning,
I planned for something real.
Your guidance has saved me,
and you gave me something to feel.

As your arms embrace me,
I know not fear.
And as your lips penetrate me,
I hold you ever closer, my dear.

But I ****ed it all up.
I should have thought twice.
You gave me it all, and I never asked.
And now I pay the price.

For I have always loved you,
and you can never love me again.
The words you spoke were always true,
and I have to say goodbye, my friend.

Forgive me.
I am only human.