everyday i am waliking 8-9 km in the hotel.

i woke up at 03:30 after a few hours sleep
watched netflix
fed my stray babies
bin out
cleaned te litter of my pistachio
gave her gastro-intestinal and anti hair-ball
prepared a sandwich and peach bear
like winter mood
cant believe there wont be an other day off
it will be just off !!

there is this woman at work
she is accountant but actually she is the owner's right-hand man
she is like owner
she yells, orders, very rude
there is noone she did not shout at
but me
she walks by me, and strokes my arm, says are you ok?
i may be the only one who likes her
she is right
she wants things right in details
i like details, and people caring about details.

i always say, dont get my hatred. when i wish something, it happens
dont make my heart break, dont make me wwwish bad for you.. sorry but it turns out to be true..

there were 2 guys tere, managers.
they were there for years, so when i started there once they tried making fun of me , really badly hurting. very bad. they said i am ugly, they said look in the mirror. i looked at them and wished they wwould just disappear. then i cried a lot. couldnt work for the rest of the day. my manager stopped me quitting job. one apologised. the other one carried on.

i wished sth fatal happened and they wouldnt appear for a long while.
next day the apoligising one wasnt there. next day not there. 3rd day not there. i asked where e is.
big accident, family.
then i was there to calm him. hope he got a lesson.

the other one, mom had a hearth atack
had to quit after 9 years work at the hotel.
my manager is saying, ezi, dont wish anything bad for me.

i always keep away from wishing bad
i always say "god, the much they hurt me, give me that much health, goodness"
others badness has no help to me
but when i am deeply hurt, omg then they are in trouble.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=DcN-9T4PV-g

i still like my last boyfriend as a friend so much - more than a friend
still extremey good chat like we have never separated (it's been 3 years)
so much laugh every time we catch each other.
and we are there for each other when we need help

i think i have a good life
best family one could ever have
my cat at home and my cats outside
my job
few friends but real ones.
i love my home
i love the place i live in -fethiye - pearl of mediterranean aegean
i am grateful...

Trib, you have deleted all your photos?

Do you not want anyone to see how pretty you are?

Hi Moto,

Thank you very much
I was wondering where you were, looking for you.
I will upload them again, maybe newer ones as well.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUxpgZufouc

if i am going to forum help page to look for bbcodes to put a song, that means i am giving it's due to my 1st day of idleness!

yesterrday was the closing day and it was perfetto!
the executive chef made his best, there wwas everything
all alcohol free
though we were there for the party only, we were paid
the best part is double wages for the ones who worked all summer long.

it was great
then goodbye to everybody, i left early. parents picked me up they were closeby.
that was good.
then home
14 hours sleep
today my lil pistachio was kissing me a 100 times with her wet nose

there are kittens there, i had to leave
my mind is with them
but i cannot save all of them.

i cannot believe i am home and this silence..
not the noise of the restaurant or whole hotel..

i am going out to the balcony
chickens, cats, silence.. peace..
green..

i said to mum "has it been always silent like this?"

it was not this much silent
it was pandemic, schools not open, people were away from working because of pandemic.
but now..
I am grateful we are living here.
no car noise.
notthing..

in a couple of days time we wwwwill visit my Russian friends.
my babies Sonya and Mark.
I missed them so much!!!
I am sure my mum is going to fall in love with my lil Sonya
cant wait..