why me?


He pushes me down
holds me down
rips them off
pushes in side
i beg to stop
he wont listen
WHY ME?
Hits in my face
i feel blood
pushes in
talkin bad
chokes me
cant breath
PLEASE STOP
i try
no sound
his moaning

he knows my dad
what did i do
why me?
pushes hard
i scream
no air
please help
PLEASE

laying limp
what is going on
really happening?
WHY?
still pounding

its not over?
please stop
please i beg
why me?
Where is my daddy?
Daddy what did i do
Where are u?
please help
ANYONE? PLEASE!

damn gurl you got the words..they just need to get past all the suff
inside..gurl you blew me away with this..there is so much power behind
your words...now let the light in

most of mine are * dark * ... i guess that is how i get over them???...
yet it still sits there but it doesnt haunt me

dark is pretty much what I usually write, gotta get out somehow ya know?
but sometimes outta no where somethin light and good comes out. As long
as it no longer haunts you, then the words have done their job..they
heal.

ur *write* bout the pass.. can't forget it.. it is part of me and what
makes me, ME... it makes me strong and days by day i get stronger and
stronger

MOM?! DAD?!

Mom?Dad? i'm scared where are u
why is your door locked
please answer
we are hungry
mom? please
dad?
where are u

today the door is not lock
lets see
what do they do
i dont see any thing
wait whats that?
paper bag? in the closet?
eyes want to pop
needles
what to do
i am so young
but why
was it me
am i bad
mom? dad?
do i make u mad
am i bad
is that why you stick your self with this evil
please mom? dad?
what is that on your arm
why wont u let me see
mom dad i no what u are doing

layin in bed crying
door locked again
no answer
what did i do this time?
WAIT
what is that
DAD?
whats wrong
911?
why what happened?
DAD?
what did u do
sits wondering WHY
who are these people
what are they doing
MOM!?
where are u going
why isn't she moving
no answer?
MOM PLEASE
DAD what happened
no one is listening
some one tell me
please
i'm begging
Dad what am i to do i'm only 8
what about bubba? sissy?
Dad what are they puttin on you
Where are they taking you
Gramma why are u here
staying with us WHY?
Time to sleep
no worries
safe once again
sweet dreams

i so just saw my typo in my last post ur..?? no clue ... but i ment when
i *write*

Damn girl, just made me cry, for that lil girl..

sherrie, oh sherrie----

that was very painful, to know you, and to read "you" there
in that moment, i want to cry, i lov ya girl, give me a hug...

now lets wipe our eyes and smile....

the past is just that ..past...it can still eat away at us but as you
see your words heal...it made you who you are, and you're strong because
and despite it . It can't hurt you any more. Again you blew me away,
gurl there is so much more to you than you think, keep writing...

thanks i just wrote the last one...lol... BUT they all seem like bits
and pieces of what really happen back then... i no what i'm wrting
about...but i guess u get it...witch is good?! thanks i will have to
write more more often thanks

though I may be strong at heart,your story made me weak,
no more tears for you please,you made me weak in my knees...M.

Ohhhhhhhh my gawd child you brought tears to my eyes your words have
more power behind them, then you will ever know.
You need to get out there with your thoughts girl you could change the
lives of alot in drug rehabs after hearing your words maybe just maybe
you could bring one person back to living in this world and correct the
hurt they have done to there loved ones. There is only truth behind what
a child sees through there eyes when growing up and the power it has on
others. Even Tho you are an adult now what you have seen as a child
could actually help others!!!

Thanks TX lol i wouldn't even no where to start what to do with
them...LOL they just kinda came out last night...lol... not real sure...
but thanks for your comments!

You got a name... I got a rope and a tree!

deep, very deep made me cry...hang in there..the sun will shine.

lunatic...lol it has been done..nothing can change it..lol so put ur
rope away and go water the tree...LOL


sphere thanks for you comment and the sun shines every day for me even
when i want it to go away so i can sleep but it is always lookin me in
the face yelling

I have the little auto sprinklers lol.
The rope stays ready .. I have two daughters!

LOL yeah i no what ya mean...LOL... keep it out.. but be wize...





WHAT IS UP WITH THE TEMP SHUT DOWN ALL THE TIME THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS

emotional winter?