Hi... how are you feeling ...

do I tell my true feelings ...
or put that mask on to hide them ...

know I do not feel like I want to meet a Japanese women ...

what your not a typical dating site ...
woops... know I do not shop there...

isn't that a song-> Girls ! girls! girls !


they have now turned into beautiful Girls ...
what I have a friend request... again I don't want to shop there ...
and I am on enough medication thank you ...


ok... I am just avoiding my feelings and started reading the ads


I think I am trying to make myself laugh ...

becouse I have had a very stressful day ...

I feel I have know right to vent ...

and I do not like to go over things from my past ...

just something brought me back to where I was once and felt like my heart just got crushed ...know ones fault just mine ...

to let myself feel this again ... really just S*cked...
when I thought I was over that pain ... and strong enough to cope ...
guess not... as it all rushed back in ...

to remind me of how I am so weak ... when it comes to this feeling ...
I get so angry and hurt ...
I asked myself why do you want to feel this ...

well I really don't becouse it puts me in this dark place ...
where my breath is very short ... and my mind just flies into pieces ...

trying not to say the wrong thing ... and not feel so selfish ...

cry I sure feel like it ... but as one has said to me before ...
why ... then my thoughts go back to where I could not stop ... and cried like a fish ...

know matter what ... finally I thought I could be strong enough ...

I guess ...I am wrong ...


them the anger comes and flushes through me...

what the h*ll did I do ...to deserve this ...


will these feelings ever go away ... I know I hate feeling this way ...

hoping this write... helps get it out of me ...

I think it is time for bed ...



thank u ... needed to change something ...


maybe I will hear that song now



https://youtu.be/ET3-t1jFmo0

hiii