there is a fire within me, it burning ablaze
everything is blurry, its now all a haze
its pure hatred and fueled with heartache
id walk away, but there is to much at stake

i feel like im losing it, it wont go away
thoughts of how i felt, when you left that day
i was so sad, and cried so many tears
where did we go wrong after 7 f**cking years

my god i hate you so much
i wanna just pound your face in
beat the hell out of you like you did me
and just spit in you face and grin

i know i shouldnt feel like this
but its just with me all the time
they said noel give it some time
i promise you'll be fine

well im not fine at all
it all still hurts like hell
sometimes i wish you were dead
sometimes i just wanna yell

this pain is unbearable
i cant take it much longer
they say noel just move on
youll be so much stronger

but i cant get over it
it consumes my life everyday
you dont know what you did to me
it affects me in everyway

im scared to go out
to have feelings for another
im so overprotective of my son
im such a bad mother

i try and i try
only to have it all blow up in my face
why is this happening to me
why do i feel like i have to run, when im not even being chased

i feel panicked and sweaty
my heart beats so fast
why cant i just be normal
and let go of my past

im fighting a fight
thats me against me
i just wanna be happy
why cant this be

just venting--somewhat angry at the world today....

Divorce Decree

The eyes are like two shining stars, to brighten any day
For those who are around you or you pass along your way
You know a life of heartache, and it often makes you sad
But even through your bad times, there was much to make you glad

Many years of life you shared, with someone you held dear
Now it's lonely holidays, not much to bring you cheer
Your lonely heart is filled with fear, of facing life anew
Instead of love and caring, that used to get you through

It's hard to leave a past behind, a life that once you knew
Yet every day's a new day now, designed for only you
So many things to think about, a new life to create
To fill with only things you like, and nothing that you hate

Memories are treasures, and some are not so grand
Those we only think about, to deal with what's at hand
Others are of special times, a pleasure to recall
Good or bad, they're yours for life, you have to count them all

You'll always look behind you, while traveling through your day
And think on things you used to share, now done another way
So many things to make you think, you'd like to change the past
But when life's shared , you have to grow, or nothings gonna last

We cannot turn the clock back, it simply can't be done
It's time to store the memories, and start to have some fun
Life is always changing, we must shape it as we go
Making our decisions, that we hope will help us grow

Putting on a happy face, will chase that frown away
Seeking new found pleasures, will start to fill your day
It's simply life, enjoy it, look ahead, not where you've been
Let life become a happy thing, filled with peace and friends

Smile and be happy

How can the wax be free if the candle does not burn?
Here Have I matches and kerosene. Soon there will be....
only puddles

in flame

I have been there, and that poem sound like what I have been through,, very touching,,

Hope it gets better for ya