im filled with so much hate, thinking of facing my death
i wanna scream at the top of my lungs, but cant seem to catch my breath

no-one seems to understand the feelings that rage inside of me
is an anger deep inside keeping me from being free

there so much pent up hurt, thats waiting to released
ive tried to think it out, but these feeling just increase

you say i should be over it, noel its time to move on
but dont you understand, i lost him, he is forever gone

he made me feel like i was no-one, that i was just a game
another one on the list, of his f**k and leave hall of fame

but now its been over a year, and these feelings of hate still tear at my heart
wanna just seem him face to face and tell him how he ripped my soul apart

wanna tell him what he did to our son when he walked away
ill hate you forever, for leaving him that day

you see you think its all fine, you now live your life in stride
but remember the people you left behind, and the rage that still boils deep inside

i cant surpress it for very much longer
because of one thing...i am a woman, a mother, and because of that ...ill always be stronger

There is a fine line between love and hate.... you are walking that line.... Your hate will heed to not caring any more..When you reach that point then you can move forward and another will enter into your life.... You'll be fine....

It's always hard when kids are involved, but it does make us stronger. I wish you strength and healing

Keep writing, beat the crap out of pillows when nobody's around. Eventually, you will get to a point, where you'll be content again.....

beautiful and real
you inspire me to write
a few lines
for you

whew the venom, all I can say is hatred only hurts the one feeling it, so do all you can to be rid of it. I wish you peace in your soul

Noel, u are such a beautiful Lady, I hope u can find peace, life is beautiful, ya just gotta get through the bad to enjoy the good!!