i love you, love you, love you so much, i could die...

these things happen after 3 pegs.
(may be res of brain shuts doen)

oh how i hate her, hate her, hate her, hate her;
cause i can never be near my love
(happens on the 4th peg)

don't ask

oh yeah
they made a song out of it.
Lee Marvin: "snow can burn your eyes, but its people who make you cry"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTymtAbaG08

"Do i know where hell is. hell is i hello!!"

my dad died 4 weeks ago, i was there at his cremation

my dad, towards end was quite disappointed in me..

i watched my Dad's body lay as the crematorium fires blew flames

i wrote to my ex,
Dad has passed away.

she wrote back:
'he was a good man'

He was a manager, retired and became a yoga teacher
he had his first fall; when a car backed into him' at 75.
in bed and back to his feet; telling us all 'check Gita'

he fell some 36 times
shoulder cracks, hip cracks n what not..
in bed and out 35 times

36th was when he was carried upstairs when the city was flooded.
house was flooded
i met him after the flood.

finally i told him, "Accha (Dad) i won't be seeing you."
he nodded.

two days later he gurgled in his morning tea
and passed away an hour later.

a friend of his told me at the crematorium. it's alright to cry.

what was there?
we had already said our goodbyes.

Dad,
i don't think i could stand more than 2 or 3 bone breaking falls
can't think, a struggle to breathe with lungs collapsed

dad,
best thing for me would be to go down with a bullet
you had a family to say 'goodbye'
not that the family 'really cared' at the end...

i don't have a family; at least they all already hate me
thank God
best thing for me, a bullet
nothing dramatic (i may beg to live)

a drink of wine, laced
watching the river go by
and nodding myself to sleep.

and saying, i tried but, sorry.

ah people,
was a poem.

Awwwww, words, what would we do without them?
They paint the picture, we can but marvel at
the accuracy of thought.

Soldier on JaiGi, your words hold you up.

thanks, medicine woman.
had a weak moment.
TY

Poignant. Your story touched my heart, JaiGi.

Moving and heart-rending.

Moment of weakness and strength in any human being.

broken hipbone (femur) is the culprit of my grandpa's bed sufferings it hurts to think about it... Thank God he is not suffering now wherever he is

No words Jai. Just a hug...

thanks baby,
at times like this, need to say, but don't actually know what to say,

MzRosie, my fellow traveler in M2
Bahiteva, thanks,
Czery, now don't you become Mother Theresa, how i love you kiddo;
actually i'm getting worried; haha..

and Soufie who is near to us all (if not always dear, haha) that's family

and a personal thank you to all the guys; my friends who didn't whisper
understanding these things could sometimes happen
or happened; (took a blimey Indian to wail, that's all)

As my Dad would've said; 'lets move on'

but frankly, i'm still sort of .., getting over it,
life gives us so little time...

Yeah, i know he is gone..

edited: under what is poetic license

Im so sorry for your loss.
For you, Sir.

"The Nights"

Hey, once upon a younger year
When all our shadows disappeared
The animals inside came out to play
Hey, went face to face with all our fears
Learned our lessons through the tears
Made memories we knew would never fade

One day my father—he told me,
"Son, don't let it slip away."
He took me in his arms, I heard him say,

"When you get older
Your wild heart will live for younger days
Think of me if ever you're afraid."

He said, "One day you'll leave this world behind
So live a life you will remember."
My father told me when I was just a child
These are the nights that never die
My father told me

[Instrumental]

When thunder clouds start pouring down
Light a fire they can't put out
Carve your name into those shining stars
He said, "Go venture far beyond these shores.
Don't forsake this life of yours.
I'll guide you home no matter where you are."

One day my father—he told me,
"Son, don't let it slip away."
When I was just a kid I heard him say,

"When you get older
Your wild heart will live for younger days
Think of me if ever you're afraid."

He said, "One day you'll leave this world behind
So live a life you will remember."
My father told me when I was just a child
These are the nights that never die
My father told me

These are the nights that never die
My father told me
Hey, hey.

thanks LuRosemary,
you are very kind,
song reminded me like what they say 'there's a boy in every man'. haha

i was reading your 'my little corner of words'
unusual lines...
heartwarming, young, and so dear
--xx--
dear friends,
i think this post come to a full circle.
thanks all.

.
im no mother theresa jai...haha LOL..why are getting worried hmmm