Standing in these amber-colored stalks of wheat

not another soul for miles

i ponder.

ponder choice

ponder isolation

ponder sadness

i sink deeper into this sadness

falling to my knees

anguish hardens my heart

tears flow down my cheeks

i scream into the sky

does the world hear?

does it care?

need a response

need direction

need action

need...

...a hand to hold mine

arms around me

grasping tightly

shielding me from despair

a feminine voice

bolstering my anguish with

her gentle voice in my ear

"I've got you. I've got you. Just let go of it all.

I wont let go til you do.

shhhhhh.....im here......

....i'm here....shhhhhh"

The tears and anguish dont stop for a few single solitary minutes

I cant let go of my pain.

I look in the direction of hope but

the distance to it is too far

this wasteland will kill me

i pray for a quick death

at least then my pain will be ended

and hope will wrap her arms round me in death

and i can lay comfortable in her embrace

for eternity

in the solace i never achieved in life

This...

Lovely write.

thank you both. you are sweet and lovely as usual, ladies!

OMG I feel the meaning, but it's sadness is too much to keep me from crying!
It's beautiful, yet, sad in it's ending!

A poem I wrote when I was feeling extremely vulnerable, lonely and sad. I didn't contemplate suicide, but I did have this fleeting thought of "if i died, would anyone miss me?" Then something about that notion made me laugh, and I told myself "Whoa, dude, okay, you're single, not desperate/pathetic."
So I dealt with it by just kind of channeling the pain and putting it all into the poem.
sometimes the best creative expressions come from strong feelings, so....I guess the origin of the poem is pain so great that a young man takes his life only to be rewarded in limbo of the love he never got on earth.
So it kinda/sort of has an upbeat ending, from a certain point of view.