the past couple of months have been hell and some of you fine people had
kind words for a man ready to give up and at a couple of points even
cash in :( I've made a couple of good friends here and REALLY need to
thank them for their help in getting me through it. I'm not going to
name names but you're regulars and I know you'll know who you are. Now
the tough part...........
I'm sitting here alone in Colorado tonight. I moved here in April and
have yet to meet very many people IRL other than some card playing
friends and people at a bar where I play pool and darts. I'd like to
meet and make some REAL friends (and yes of course especially ladies, or
rather a special lady) but from what I've seen there aren't too many
Coloradans here. A side note to one special lady who was a real up the
the challenge friend here..... I know there's a lot of distance between
us but you never know what the future might hold and I hope we stay
friends and maybe something else might develope there. The fact is this
last dumping was especially hard and any lady interested is going to
really have to understand I need to go slow and let things develope
because my sense of trust is severely torn up. All I want in the end is
to find the lady ya'll keep telling me is out there so how about it? Any
Coloradans out there need a bud and any female ones interested in
getting to know a really nice guy and at least being his friend? As for
the nice guy tag I REALLY hate it because it's usually a signal a
relationship is coming to an end but I guess I'm stuck with it and if
necessary I guess I can supply references! LOL
This may sound dumb too but even if you're not from my area and know
anyone who is that might be interested in being put in touch I'd be
happy to hear from you. It's going to be a long dark lonely winter and
at the least I'd like some friends outside the bar scene to do things
with.
Thanks again to those who were friends in my time of need. Who says you
can't make real friends online?!?

You are a very special person.
For those that have not gotton
to know you they don't know what
they are missing. Keep on smiling :)

Mills
you are a nice person, one of this days someone specia will come
in to your life and things will change you will see
so don't give up.


morena

hey i think most of us that have helped you, like the fact that you took
time to thank us and let us know that you are thankful for the help. and
want to keep in touch. thanks alot and i am at least glade to help you.
so thank you.
jade

Suddenly...I heard a tapping...As Of Someone Gently Rapping...Rapping At
My Chamber Door.... You're knocking for some help....I'm here millsdd
and I answered the door. Listen millsdd, please, don't be down.
Everything will be okay... I'm looking for my special love too and it's
NOT easy at all!! I SO know how you feel!! Don't give up millsdd,
don't please. When the term is used, "keep your chin up" where are you
eyes! Looking forward, moving yourself forward. And, when you put your
chin up higher...where are you looking....to GOD... He is SO important
and HE knows that you're sad. GOD WILL NOT let you down. The one thing
that GOD wants....and does is helps people who help themselves. He sees
you're trying and he knows. Maybe you're trying too hard millsdd. You
sound like SUCH a nice guy and I KNOW...you'll find someone I KNOW IT!!
Millsdd....I'll pray for you.....honestly....I'm telling you the truth.
I have a picture of Jesus RIGHT on my computer desk and I will look
forward to him and close my eyes.....and pray for you. Okay? k. I'm
behind you 100% buddy. I really am!! I will pray SO HARD for you to
find your true love. I'm going to do it RIGHT NOW!! Look
FORWARD....and UP!! NEVER down, unless you have to pick something up
off the floor LOL!! I know, it's no time for humor and it's not. I
will pray and pray hard to GOD to help you. See, everyone needs
love....and when one wants it and doesn't get it.....it's NOT fair but,
it happens..... I'm going to go now but, I'll pray IMMEDIATELY!!! Look
forward millsdd, look up Millsdd....look to GOD....and.....don't try so
hard millsdd because when it comes to you......you'll be SO surprised
and happy. I'm just trying to help you right now. When you don't try
so hard, you act more like.....yourself....and women pick up on that
because they can see you being yourself......and that's what they want
and are looking for. Be yourself, don't try so hard, be confident, keep
your chin up and your eyes to GOD. You'll be just fine.....I'll check
in on you later to see how you're doing okay? k. I'm here for you
millsdd.....if you need to talk.....You'll be okay man. Just relax,
take a deep breath and smile and be proud of yourself. Not many people
care about REAL love but, you do. That's why I'm proud of you and
anyone else who cares about REAL love!! It's important, special and
makes one complete and you will be completed.....just give it some time
and I'll say it again.....BE YOURSELF and be PROUD!! I'll pray and look
in on you later....If you need a friend....I'm here.

I'm doing a LOT better because of the friends I've made here. This
wasn't supposed to be a "downer" post but actually more of a request
from me to the good people here for a little help in making some IRL
friends here in Co. Greeley is a fairly large city but it's been
difficult to meet and make many friends is all.

sup

SSSD (lately the days run together and it's not SSDD LOL )