Was It Me or Did We

Our missing love’s misery
never spoke quietly
it screamed
it seemed
but to deaf ears
silently
because you were both
my only love
and my beautiful flaw
I could not see the truth
because you're all I ever saw
and now I live my today
based on how you made me feel
afraid to love again
not sure if it could ever be real

I am forever lost
in love’s unreal reality
and how it complicated my confusion
I was never sure
if it was me
or him you were using
I ask myself
over and over again
was it me
or did we
fail,
who was at fault
were we even friends
but in the darkness
of light
when all is said
and has been done
I understand
that I was never
truly you’re only one
but you
you were the joy of my world
when you lived as my wife
and now,
the pain
in the depths of my soul
as I try to forget
that lonely life

mig... its as if I have walked in your shoes... I know this joy and this deepest pain... and self doubt too... to know love... another soul... even apart they still live in our heart... as it's still breaking... this write really moves me to the extreme in the depth of its mystery... "why.. was it really me... or did we..."

I was trying to reach that feeling where the person is speechless because they can't understand why . . . and I think a lot of us are like that at some point and time.

Nice write...

my heart aches too much from the deep disillusion I feel in this to be speechless... instead, it compels my desire to absorb some of the pain... so you won't have to experience it all alone...

outstanding mig, i felt every heart break that went along with this.