When I set out on my walk yesterday
there were black & white clouds,
some even gray,
and their thick overcast
kept the sun at bay
all day.
The air was enigmatic
and I breathed it in deep,
as I reveled in fresh oxygen
it filled my lungs to capacity.
Then
suddenly and unexpectedly
the wind picked herself up,
I heard a roar in my ears
and felt a very strong gust.
Powerfully
this wind’s noise blew into my soul,
I felt earth’s pulling energy
and didn’t want her to let me go…
Just for a minute
I imagined having her force,
to push past the boundaries
that keep me off course.
Normally
during my daily exercise
it’s just the wild animals
and me,
they’re in the surrounding woods,
and we keep each other company.
Occasionally
a few neighbors drive by,
some slow down
and ask if I need a ride.
Just once
but never again
I’d like to say yes,
then climb onboard a different train
that’s going anywhere fast.
Mostly
it’s just me and my thoughts
talking like friends,
as they give me ideas
I grab a pad and pen.
You might not understand
the connection
between my thoughts and me
hell, sometimes I even see them
as my own worst enemy.
But
when intuition puts her face in my business,
she aggravates my feelings
until she makes them bare witness.
Once my feelings and thoughts
have been swayed by intuition,
I’m left with no other choice
it’s to her voice I listen.
Whatever she reveals
my mind’s eye detects,
and as I trust in her instinct
she’s never let me down yet.
Well
with everything going on
from stormy weather,
to some health
and financial issues,
to my ex,
it’s difficult to decide
what I should do next.
So
I’m kinda in limbo
as I move forward in life,
my motivation is waning
now that I’m nobodies wife.
It’s like I’m on autopilot
in a steady nose dive,
where nothing I do matters
if I can’t get anything right.
And the faster I walk
the harder my pulse beats,
as it rushes through my veins
it’s out of step with my feet.
So annoying is the noise
of my shoes on the road,
as it clearly reminds me
that I’m always walking alone.
But
I have to keep smiling,
refusing to let depression
creep in,
or sadly for me
that could be my story’s end.

AR©01/29/13

Mother Earth and Father sky do indeed bring forth longings. Stormy weather does cause me to think.

It seems as if this dreary weather just won't let up as she howls outside my windows day and night.. as if she's trying to tell me something I don't already know...

Just remember, with the rain and the gloom of the storm comes the beauty of God's earth. Storms don't last forever. Winter ends. The earth resets itself and blooms again. Without the storms there'd never be beauty. Without the tests we seem to be given at mostly inconvenient times, and when we feel the least able to face them, comes the strength to deal with the next challenge.

Look at each storm as a chance to renew. To open your heart and mind to the possibilities that lie within each drop of rain. The wind that threatens to blow you away also causes each tree to set down deeper roots, strengthening it and making it stand the test of time.

You're never walking alone.

It will let up Karen. Spring brings forth new life. With new life brings new hope.

Just like Shortfire said.

Cold hearted orb that rules the night, removing colors from our sight
red is gray and yellow white, but we decide which is right and which is an illusion..

Music is always your friend..... even saying things you don't want to hear.... but must

Relax and enjoy the journey that begins...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytfX4al_1qE&feature=endscreen

Beautiful write.. thank you sharing that experience.

Wind (and storms) is a thing that I've always held in contention... long story, that.

But occassionaly this one helps sooth my soul when I over think it all.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXOihxjXqAo

Thank you for your kind and encouraging words, shortfire...
Tests and challenges... though character building in nature and effect I wish we would be able to eventually graduate with a degree in patience and strength, also with a few months off for summer vacation... just to regain equilibrium... I'm sorry.. on rare occasions things just seem more difficult than they should be... again.. thank you... your support means a lot...

It will let up Karen. Spring brings forth new life. With new life brings new hope.

Just like Shortfire said.


I know, Jeff... and you all at Mingle mean so much to me... you're really like my family, and your support is heartfelt... being alone sometimes makes things feel worse than they really are...

When I read your words, I was reminded of this song by Christina Aguilera ...It is called "I Will Be" ... I found a copy with lyrics...I hope these beautiful words bring a little comfort...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1OAPX1S37NM

Lots of conflicting images in this one, to me anyways.

Thank you, Soul... I've never heard this album before and it's very mellow and soothing.. I especially liked "We're all looking for someone" "I still haven't found what I'm looking for." It just makes the reality of being alone so much more poignant... especially at our age... it's like... our journeys are in the last stretch... is there going to be someone beside us when we get to the finish line... makes me think... thank you, Soul... the music is nice..

It will let up Karen. Spring brings forth new life. With new life brings new hope.

Just like Shortfire said.


I know, Jeff... and you all at Mingle mean so much to me... you're really like my family, and your support is heartfelt... being alone sometimes makes things feel worse than they really are...

Teditis... John Denver is an artist after my own heart.. this song made me cry in its beauty and meaning... not that it would have taken much with this blasted mood I'm in.. lol... I know tomorrow will be a brighter day... and I could swear that was a Perigee moon too, there towards the end of the song... thank you so much for this offering, and your warm words of support..

"I will be strong on my own... I will find my way... I will keep traveling this road..." yes, Leigh.. Christina knows how to belt it out... and melt a body down.. :) .. this song is awesome... and reminded me so much of my own journey... thank you for your pointing it out... and for your kind support too...

I agree, hippie.. I was letting my emotions dictate the words and flow at the time I wrote it all out... then I rewrote it last night, and now it's twice as long but more properly structured... I just didn't want to post it here again right now... thank you for reading it, and for your kind support of my work...

JD is often overlooked in his understanding of life and the world around us... that's my opinion.
But, yeah, go where life pulls you... be it the moon or something other.
And when life shakes you to the core... love the moment.
I pray that you'll have others to share that moment with.

Do me a favor though... don't tell anybody that I Like JD so much... that I have a 6-albulm set. They may think I have have no "swag" and talk poorly of me, haha.

I may never live this down but JD was the very first concert I ever attended. I was so excited I didn't sleep for three days before going.

I had the honor of singing his song "For You" at my brother and sister-in-laws wedding. They let me choose the song :-)

JD is often overlooked in his understanding of life and the world around us... that's my opinion.
But, yeah, go where life pulls you... be it the moon or something other.
And when life shakes you to the core... love the moment.
I pray that you'll have others to share that moment with.

Do me a favor though... don't tell anybody that I Like JD so much... that I have a 6-albulm set. They may think I have have no "swag" and talk poorly of me, haha.



Sometimes there is only a once in a lifetime pull that shakes us to the core... that unique person who really gets us... and if it doesn't work out with this kind of connection... it makes me seriously question what love and life is really all about.

About JD... he's my fav... I sooo crushed on him... and had every song he ever sang in my collection back in the day... his voice was/is so warm and inviting, and his heart was so open and easy to read... he could have sang the phone book and I would have loved it...

And I pinky swear never to divulge your private confidence to anyone else.. lol... "no swag", huh? Doubt that... JD was a romantic to his core... so that's not a bad reflection on any man that can relate in that way... and I'll be listening to the song you posted for me over and over.. cuz I can never get enough of his magic in me...

I may never live this down but JD was the very first concert I ever attended. I was so excited I didn't sleep for three days before going.

I had the honor of singing his song "For You" at my brother and sister-in-laws wedding. They let me choose the song :-)




how cool was that, shortfire, good for you.. and what an awesome tribute to him and your brother and sister-in-law too.. John had/has that very unique quality, genuine charm and magnetism, combined with sensitivity that is hard to deny once you've experienced it... he'll be one of the stars that will never burn out for those who recognize his energy...