I'm thinking about how blessed I am. I got really burnt out on mingle the last week and was ready to leave it be for a while. I think I have a hard time with certain things that happen on-line, and when I can't push the fix button I start to think I have way too little time to mess with it. Other people in my life were also telling me how out of character this is of me, but maybe this is why I'm so attracted. Plus there are some really great people here and reading some of their adventures are the hoot.

I've been really concerned about Ghost and it breaks my heart to see him, Mikey and others go through some of the challenges they have had to face. Still I've been so darn busy that getting on-line to mingle has not been on the hot list. So I thunk.

The last couple days it is all I have been doing. You see mister "can do it all still" decided to help the guys pick up some wood for projects the other day. The tow-motor was tied up so I started carrying full sheets of 4X8 3/4" marine ply (the heavy stuff LOl) to the loading dock. Yes you can picture the next brilliant move. Me and the sheet of ply went off the dock. Don't ask LOL. I was laughing with the guys till I tried to move. 2 yes I can count 2 broken knee caps and one broken rib. I broke my back and ribs before but you loose your appreciation for pain if you haven't had any for a long time. Even my heart attack was a piece of cake compared to this. My girlfriend was mortified and my dog Pepper is so shook up that she is laying on me for comfort. Yes it hurts when she or the other she lay on me. Some one should tell them this.

Here's the good side. I'm getting more writing done for my biz than I have in a long time. They don't even know I'm hurt. My pup and sweetie have been great and my lawyer is sending me herbal treatments by the ton (don't do meds anymore since a really bad bout with them a few years ago). The food delivery service has been great, and my place happens to have the greatest layout for wheeling around (who thunk). I have already mastered going potty LOL and doing the wash thing. Most of all I haven't stopped to smell the roses in a while or slept (well not sleeping now) and this is the time.

Yes, so many thing could go wrong and my schedule is screwed, but there is something about getting old that maybe I'm learning. After all this time I really "am" a happy person. Even my lawyer and doctor have said "you haven't complained once". That more than anything means a ton to me. Have I grown older into a happy soul? God I hope so. One of my biggest fears was to grow old and be mean or full of bad tidings. Having a chance to count the blessings of my life so far is, well magical. When you think about it we can look at life two ways. One full of obstacles and hardships, or one full of meaningful moments. I hope when I'm gone (not leaving for 50 more years or so) people think of me as a happy person. As my friend said to me the other day (a cancer survivor) "two years ago I was dead and today I'm hiking 5 plus a day". 73 years old mind you. He gave me the greatest advice about 4 years ago and I say it all the time. "Happiness is when you get to the place where you can be" Just "be". No unhappiness pulling on you or wanting to get out. No stress of yesterday or tomorrow "just be".

This week in some ways everything stopped and when it did I had a chance to be the real me, and I found me to be a happy place. My circumstances can say 2 things, but it's my true self that picks the one I hear and live by. And the interesting thing is we have one of these two sides happen automatically without us even thinking or trying to make it happen. It's just us, the real us.

And so in my usual long winded way, that's what I'm thinking about. That and itching my back.

.....thinking this BLT & Bailey's & coffee is hitting the spot...

mi

I like your thinking lady.

Thinking it is going to be a day of baking. The sunrise was beautiful, what a grand start to the day.

Heehehe it hit the spot.......

Saving up for a mixer...

My thoughts just went out the window

Thinking, the hour is nigh. Almost time for topherj to make like a bee and... Go to bed...

Thinking the sunrise was beautiful. The weather is warmer this morning going to be in the 70's. Coffee is hot and spiked with Bailey's.

Thinking, wow, third consecutive day that I'm here and...





















...you are too!!!!!

Where o where did you go?

I gotta poop

I am not sure what a sea cucumber is and I had no idea Mr. Happy had a twin brother. Who knew?..........

Thinking it was indeed a beautiful sunrise. Another beautiful morning in Colorado.

all the stupidity hurts my soul.

Lunch time! I'm starving.

Ok, so my mum could end up homeless soon, along with both of my step sisters. Wish I had enough money to get them a new home. Me and my flatmate can't take them in as we have enough rent to pay already. It would only go up if anyone else moved in. I advised her to ask gran to let them live with her. I'm pretty sure gran wouldn't turn down her own daughter in this kind of desperate situation.