I don't know if you realize that I'm here,
waiting in the shadows of the other's around me.
And I have given away to the fear,
that I cannot say and be what I need to be.
I've been hiding in myself for years,
and I prefer to keep to myself now.
Hidden behind the mask and tears,
I have yet to figure out how,
I think and how I am.

I see you in the corner of my eye,
and I am terrified of people seeing who I'll be.
I'll keep to myself and lie,
Will anyone see deep into me?
Break open my mind and heart,
and I shall pretend that you know who I'll become.
I'll try not to fall apart,
so I've got to run,
away from the people around me.

If I smiled would it make a difference?
If there was joy would I need to show proof?
If I sang would it be a delieverance,
from the sorrow which is the sorrow so true?
I am hidden behind a mask made of joy,
and I feel as though I have become fake,
play with me as a toy,
and eventually I'll break,
under the strain.

If I happened to expose my skin,
would someone want to indulge themself in me?
If I let someone in,
I wonder what they'll see.
I don't know how fair it is while I'm waiting,
for someone who may never come.
I wait and sometimes I'm debating,
if I should stay or run,
away from those I care for.

Empty as an unused casket,
Hollow and cracked.
Hold my heart out in a basket,
and I won't take it back.
Kiss, kiss my love,
An empty phrase hidden with a smile.
I feel the need to hide above,
the world for quite a while,
to mend my bones.

THanks for putting so much of yourself into the poem. I enjoy emotive writing.

Lunali, what a great write..

Thank you guys for being so cool about my poetry, I've lately been doing little besides work and writing.

to write what we know,...sometimes the emotion is startling with revelations of ourselves. I love the honest and openness you share.