Slipping once more into the darknes
too tired to find a way out
she slowly retreats into a shell of bitter hatred
so many broken promises and lies
with no one around to hear she cries
"must i really go on?"
Children play happily in the summer sunshire
drawing the curtains she drifts further from those who care
drowining in anger she cries
"must i really go on?"
Crickets chirp softly into the cool summer night
pale moonlight filling the room she lies on the floor
lost in a cloud of dark thoughts.
"must i really go on?"
Unable to cry any longer she lifts the picture from her desk,
gently running her fingers over his face as if to bring him back she cries
"must i really go on?"

((((((((((((SHYPRINCESS)))))))))))))) I may be wrong but I have a feeling this is in regards to your father........we are given no choice of who are family is.........but you can create your own special family.......with friends........they will be there for the ups, and downs.......

((((Shyprincess))))) We are all here for you,,, When life seems to not be the way it should be,, and you fill all is lost,, just reach out your hand,, We will lift you up

I enjoyed the expression very much though the element of deep sadness resides within.However it is imperative for you to release so this is good indeed.I know sweetheart via e-mail whom it's in regards to.Most certainly the desire of love & want concerning your bio.will never cease for he is just that & that dear can not be altered or changed for we do not posess that ability(none of us can).However remind yourself then at these trying moments that U now have a Stepdad who loves U like he would his own bio.Daughter and that sweetheart is soooo bearific.I tip my beret to that man.Praise God!In regards to Q'ing going on most certainly U must & shall & remember the moment that relinquish hope we are doomed for we have now accepted abject faiure which is no option hon.K Chin-up & never forget U have much support via ur friends @JSH.((((bear~hugs))))
Godspeed!Cybear;=)