Topic: Love is....
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Wed 04/13/11 01:56 PM
On March 4th 2011 I was vacuuming my house and I felt a pain at the bottom of my spine, I didn’t think much of it and lay down on the sofa thinking it would go a in a few hours, each hour the pain got steadily worse, I lay on the sofa most the day and started taking some ibuphrophen, by Sunday it had got worse, I didn’t feel able to go to church and stayed most of the day horizontal watching films.
By Monday I could barely stand up, the pain had spread up my back, all the muscles in my back had gone into spasm, I could not stand for more than about 2 minutes max, I could barely walk the length of my house, and the pain was unbearable. I managed to get the Dr who said I had most likely pulled a muscle and to keep moving as much as possible to prevent further spasm, (some weeks later I found this out to actually be detrimental and it caused further problems).

A week later it was a lot better, I went back to work to find that I could only actually sit there for 5 hours, that and the walk there and back knocked me back again, I had a horrendous burning at the bottom of my spine, worse than before which was to stay with me now for some weeks, and pain also went up my back and down my buttocks in the top of my legs and I needed a further week off work.
A week later I tried going back to work again and lasted 2.5 days, I had physio on the 3rd day and the Physio sent me straight home and said I needed to rest not keep active as it was clearly causing further problems although he wasn’t able to offer a diagnoses other than a spinal issue which was effecting the muscles surrounding the spine as they were enflamed and trying to protect it.
Three sessions later and another week off work the physio after finding ultrasound massage not to be effective referred me back to the Dr’s who told me it was likely to be a sacroiliac joint sprain (A joint in the pelvis) and sent me back to the physio and signed me off for another 2 weeks, this time the physio said as there is no improvement its more likely to be a problem with the L5 & L6 area at the bottom of the spine, which I understand to be the vertebra, the sacroiliac joint sprain was likely to be a secondary injury, he also mentioned a twisted pelvis this time and he would request a referral to the physio centre in Bognor where I would have a scan done and most likely need to have Steroid injections. In the meantime I was to do as little as possible, which is very difficult when you live alone and still have to cook for yourself, do your shopping and clean etc, although I have been lucky to have fantastic family and friends who have helped me out with a lot of these tasks, big thanks to all of them.

From day 1 I had been taking painkillers, Declophenic & codydromol mainly, this only actually took about half the pain away, I was eventually prescribed a morphine based one, which I decided I wouldn’t take, I was having enough problems with forgetting things and having some bizarre (sometimes amusing) conversations with people.

Since starting my walk with God some 4 years ago, I have never doubted God heals people. About 18 months ago I was suffering with Depression for about a week and I was lying on my sofa on a Saturday night feeling very down & had a banging headache, when suddenly God spoke to me, he said ‘I am going to heal you, you have work to do tomorrow, get up and drink loads of water’ I did just that, he kept telling me to drink, so I did and about 4 pints of water and an hour later the depression & headache had gone and I was sitting on my floor giggling and couldn’t stop smiling The next day I felt on top of the world and was able to go and do my volunteering. It turns out one of the volunteers I worked with really needed me there and would have struggled without me and was actually praying for me to be better at that moment when God spoke to me.

These last 5 weeks have been on an emotional rollercoaster, sometimes I was so high spirated and at peace knowing it was only a matter of time before I was better and I just had to ride it out, at and at other times felt I was living a nightmare, waking up day after day in pain, then having nightmares so I wasn’t even able to get any peace whilst asleep. On many occasions I shouted at God and asked why I this was happening to me and why wasn’t he talking to me and helping me, other times, I felt so loved and so close to him, even a friend walked into my lounge one day and went ‘wow’ she could really feel his presence too.

I have had so many people praying for me I feel so blessed to have so many kind friends and eventually last week I had a phone call from a church where I have a friend on the Ministry team asking if I was going to their prophetic conference. I thought, you have got to be kidding, I cannot drive all that way and sit in a church all day and evening. The more I thought about it the more it felt like I was supposed to go, although I was really questioning it and felt God say ‘do you think I would ask you to go all this way if I knew it wouldn’t help or you wouldn’t be able to sit there or dive back?’ So I did some research on the internet, found a carpark very close by and set off.

When I got to the church I found there to be blankets and pillows all around the edge, so I found a chair close by to one so I could take advantage if I wanted. As the day went on I found I spent more time lying on the floor and was more in pain as the day went on. Over lunch I got chatting to a lady who was friends with a man who had a healing ministry and she said she’d introduce me later.
When we met I said I had a problem with my back and asked if he wanted to know what I had been told by the physio and the Dr’s, he said no and said God would tell him, he got a few other people around and they all started praying, God told him I had a slight curvature of the spine, a twisted pelvis and damaged vertebra and he would be healing it all. Suddenly I felt a hot fire up my spine and an incredible shaking where the Holy Spirit was being sent from God into the areas to be healed. The shirt I was wearing had a label saying ‘Inspire’. I was told God wanted me to use this healing to go and inspire others hence me writing this and standing up in Church and telling the story on Sunday.

I ended up having prayer about 3 times over 6 hours and each time the burning was there as I was being healed. God spoke to me and said ‘Now hasn’t this been worth it’. Oh yes I said, I haven’t stopped smiling since!

The pain hasn’t totally gone, however it is a lot less severe, but I am still having to be very careful I don’t damage myself again. I am however taking only a fraction of the painkillers I was, I am a work in progress, just like God didn’t make the world in one day. I will get a little bit better each day now providing I don’t do anything silly and take it easy, I am still too scared to vaccum though!

I truely hope this will be an inspiration to all who read it, because he loves you too and wants a relationship with those of you who don’t already know how great his love is. You don’t need to go to church to have this, just ask him to come into your life and prove himself to you, he doesn’t need asking twice, he’s waiting for you.
Love is ......God

Abracadabra's photo
Wed 04/13/11 03:24 PM

You don’t need to go to church to have this, just ask him to come into your life and prove himself to you, he doesn’t need asking twice, he’s waiting for you.
Love is ......God


Great advice. flowers

I feel that God is with me all the time too. I never hear her speak in words, but I feel her presence and that's good enough for me. flowerforyou

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Wed 04/13/11 03:26 PM
inspirational experience, thanx for sharing