I watched my brother
lay his infant daughter to rest
I watched his heart
ripped right out of his chest
I watched him regress
to being dangerously depressed
and the anger he exerted
inadvertently converted to stress
In turn, the pressure inverted
and attacked what heart he had left
he started to lose breath
and his heart,
literally quit inside of his chest
compared to this
my life seemed to be less of a mess
than i had previously assessed

I watched my father
lay on life support
doctors told me
he was gonna die for sure
and it was all i could do
to hide the hurt
it was more than i had hurt
prior to him dying
and seeing him lying in dirt
I was so disturbed
my mourning was deferred
after his death, i went berserk
and vowed to find his murderer
but as of yet, i have not kept my word
and i feel lower than dirt

my mother was diagnosed with cancer
and set for a fall
yet from me,
she received not even a call
as a matter of fact,
i didn't see her at all
until i received the call
saying she wasn't breathing at all
I went to the funeral
wish i didn't see what i saw
a beautiful woman
free from flaw
I grieved,
cause she hadn't seen me at all
she died all alone
why didn't i just pick up a phone?
or runaway from the foster home
to be with my mom
it hit me like a bomb
now it's too late
she's already gone

my heart, I'm only left with a piece
my sister got into an accident
and death took my niece
I went to see my sister
she was broken, hooked to machines
these are the things
that haunt me in my dreams
these are the reasons, i don't wanna sleep

these are the things
that make me shake and shiver
as she was laying there
with broken bones, and a lacerated liver
love and support
is all we could give her
my niece, I always miss her
my emotions are whirling, and swirling
as if in a twister

(unfinished)

An amazing write..

((( Hugs ))))

Just beautiful and amazing. Very emotional, I can feel the pain.