my eyes begin to close
but i refuse to sleep a wink
as soon as i start to doze
fear greets me in my sleep
out of necessity, i don't sleep for weeks
i stay awake by abusing amphetamines
and it becomes all too clear to me
as horrible thoughts invade my dreams
i wake up with tears interrupting my screams
cause i dream
of places I've been
and faces I've seen
erasing, good memories
of places, I've lived, 14 years ago
when i was only, 13 years old
Crowley, Louisiana
dreaming of my deceased family
and some family friends
Lord, make this insanity,
cease and come to an end
PLEASE!, of you, this I plead
I truly, suffer this misery
the process is grueling
It's absurd, there is no word
to describe it
it's beyond, me just being disturbed
and i can barely survive it
why are my demons, plotting and scheming
and bothering me when
I'm simply dreaming, and I'm not even
awake
how many men
have a heart that repeatedly breaks
unevenly, my soul it shakes
and as a whole, the tole it takes
outweighs, the days
as a child i would play
with my little brother
out in the, bright sunny weather
these are the moments i treasure
because of the joy and the pleasure
as a boy, my life was so much better
but now, the pain is measured
by my standards
of whats disturbing
and its unnerving
that no matter the drug
its simply not working
its got my body
ceasing and jerking
overdosing, trying to stop hurting
and trying to stop cursing
and blurting obscenities in my sleep
so I'm eating ten of these
pills, to put my brain and its stem at ease
so I'm not haunted, by my memories
but I'm still taunted, by demons living in me

Very cool write,,
and becareful that to sleep, you don't get hooked un yet something new,,your body finds so sweet....

Drivel.

DRIVEL

*transitive verb
-to say in a silly or stupid manner

*noun
-silly, stupid talk; childish nonsense; twaddle
-a worthless message.

Well, while i respect your opinion, it is nothing more than just that. your opinion. I appreciate your critisism. But, in turn i would have to say that your retort to my feelings, is drivel.

Good reply Joe. I thought it was nice, but sorrowful. Hope you get some sleep

the monsters always disappear
sometimes in daylight sometimes in darkness
they wander away
looking it seems for something else
leaving only quiet time

Don't let the people bring you down you are a great and powerful writer and one day you will have your break, because if one person likes your stuff a hundred more follow. This one i can truly relate to.
im scared of what im turning into.

Thank you jamie, i gotta be honest, when i post something on here i look for your comment on it. i can respect your critisism. whether it be good or bad i would always appreciate it. I am always waiting for my break lol. hope it comes soon. most of the stuff i write, they are raps. (well maybe a poem here and there) but since i was like 12 i have respected the art of rap and the power it holds over emotions and even actions. I'm not the most talented rapper lol but i enjoy writing them, it just seems to come easy and it really helps me to deal the crap i deal with on a day to day basis. maybe I'm just being a bit cocky, but i really feel like it's something I am good at. some people feel differently, but i have come to terms with the fact I'm not gonna win everyone over and not everything i write is gonna be exceptional. but, i put my whole heart into what i write, and almost all of it is true events from my life. I know, scary right?lol. But, from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for your kind words. They have really had an impact.