It's Christmas Eve
and I'm all alone
no smiling children
runnin' round my home

Everytime i look at them
my eyes swell up
here come the tears again

Ever since they left my side
I've been contemplating ending my life
everyday there's tears in my eyes
i cry myself asleep everynight
this just ain't right
my fists are clenched tight
I'm furious and ready to fight

April's just mad
cause I'm their dad
well, thats too bad
It's only obvious my kids are sad
April changes men
like it's a F***ing fad
if i ever see her boyfriend
he's F***ing had

April, you have 3 kids you can't afford
and i hear, your going back to the maternity ward
you acted like if i found out
I'd start a war
but, i already knew you were a whore
if only I'd known more
i would have shown you the door
years before

Brian, I'm tired of you running your mouth
and causing drama
you ain't S**t to my kids
just cause your F***ing their momma

I'm the kinda guy
that will shoot, til you hit the ground
your body is missing
your heads in the lost and found

you can take that as a threat to kill
feed your punk A** the lead pill
pay ten dollars
to have your body dumped at the landfill

you ain't s**t punk
you don't know me
everytime you eat aprils P***y
you blow me

you ain't **** to my kids
you never will be
the only way you'll play daddy
is if you kill me

and just in case i never see my kids again
there's a couple of things, i want to say to them

Marino, my first born child
I'm sorry you saw things get so wild
just know daddy never stopped loving you
no matter what anyone's telling you

do you remember the last time dad was away from you guys?
i saw you at grandpa's funeral
you had tears in your eyes
you ran up and put your arms around me
i cried so many tears they almost drowned me
i was a lost soul
till you found me

Joseph, my baby joe-joe
I'm sorry i told you no-no

I miss and love you son
but, don't give up on daddy
cause I'm not done

I'm sorry i can't be there
but your mom, wants you to believe that i don't care
do you remember me in my chair
crying like a baby
cause mommy cut your beautiful hair

Blayze, I know your too young to understand
but, you will forever be
daddy's little man

I know things didn't turn out the way we wanted to
but the last pieces of my heart,
go to all three of you

when it comes to my children,
i will never stop giving
but life without them
isn't worth living

Filled with sadness and anger-it's good to get it out. Welcome and thanks for posting.

i wish i could comfort you.