I had to go look at your pics & i liked you in the boxing ring.. I like a girl that can try to beat me up & take it from me.. I'm as good as there sweetheart..

I have crushes, two kinds. The first kind is the one I enjoy the most, and it is when I meet someone that somehow I can tell there is something different or special about them. As a person, they are beautiful and I am too spell bound by their beauty to think of them in a sexual way. It almost feels like I discovered a rare gem of immeasurable worth. I often feel like I am unworthy for such a person.

The other way is the opposite and less enjoyable because my other brain takes control and the other person I am lusting after is but an object(like looking at porn). No feelings involved except for how I feel. This makes me feel extremely uncomfortable in public.

So far I have yet to have had a crush that involves both types of attraction equally. It has been one or the other.