if I was to see my father today.

It would be something like this...



(coughing heard. the apartment door opens)


"What the f-word do you want?"


hi Dad
just wanted to see how you are doing.


"How the f-word do you think I'm doing?"


well... you look (1st lie) good

"WELL... i feel like s-word"

well... you look (2nd lie) great


"Don't bull s-word me.
what are you doing here?"


i was looking for my Dad

I'll try back another day.

IF, this is your relatonship status with your dad,,I am sadly sorry for you both..
I have had many friends who share this type of feelings with a member of their family and IT bothers me to see it.
Some people never can or will show their love, then THEY pass away.
And for the ones who NEVER heard that said to them,,from that person now dead,,,,,,,live-on, always feeling that void, always left wondering IF they really FELT THAT inside them...
I know, my Dad, left me, with that void.
So now or shall I say, for the past twenty five years.
I LIVE to tell others,,to drop their walls,,or break through THEIRS,
so that THEY will not LIVE-ON,,,feeling this empty wasted thought.
That never gets an answer...
This was a great reflecting write man...

Great write...I have friends who have a parent like this and have the same conversation...Tragic and sad...

This is a very nice write.