Help me find my strength within
Where do I look, where to begin..?
I'm feeling weak and lost it's true
Longing for one man, he's too good to be true...

I find I'm so lonely that I overlook
Yet there are things that I need, to get hooked...
Lately I seem willing to accept so much less
Where is my strength, I can't even guess.

It's sad to me, that I have lost my self esteem
To tell me you like me... is that all I need??
For so many years I've let my life drift right by,
But there are values I need, that I want to find...

I actually just need an honest man
One who wants open communication.
This is important to me, as this brings trust
Talking about everything... to me is a must!

No more men filled with such lies
I can't keep up, I don't want to try.
What's so bad or hard, about honesty..?
I'm honest with you, be honest with me!

Respect is earned from allot of things...
It's too is important, since trust it brings.
There you have it, most all my requests
If you agree with me, then you've passed my test.

Please help me understand just why it's so
That the ones I meet, appear not to know...
Honesty, respect, communication and trust
Without these things you have no chance for love, just lust.

I shouldn't even bother to search for some love
I probably wouldn't know it, if I was hit with it's glove!
I need to try harder to stick to my goals!
Without some values, my soul is just sold...

My spirit feels empty, no will to trudge on
Everywhere I look, it's the same 'ole song...
Never once has one loved me, or even been kind
Not for more than a week or two... this, I find.

Time is fast moving, suddenly I'm old
My heart is shriveling, it's lonely and cold...
Where is the joy that I know I should feel
For being alive! For me it's no big deal.

Please just help me, find the courage to seek...
The one single man who into my soul, will just peek!
I've goodness and truth, I'm steadfast and true
Please help me accept my lot, and be happy, not blue...

I'd like to be happy, even though I'm alone
I'd like to feel content in my little home.
Maybe I could function better if I could let go
Of the desire to be loved, and just accept being alone.

Believe in you...Believe in love...Everyting is possible..Nice write...

That was a nice choice of words... thank you.

Don't settle..he's already there, wanting what you are wanting. You will find each other when the time is right.
I believe that.

Oh my... that was enough to bring tears to my eyes... that was beautifully said. Thank you sincerely for such inspiring words lori Hugzzz!

Awwwww

I mean it, truly. I have been alone 10 years now, taking care of my boys and I understand. I also really believe that there is one for me that has those qualities I seek. If I believe it for myself, I believe it for you.

Do ya think we get pickier as we age, or less picky?

I don't even have a list..I need a spiritual edge. I feel that with that, most things can fall into place better. I'm not a zealot, I'm not religious, hell I'm not even a Christian... just that a spiritual connection is important in any relationship. When we can see the divine in others we are able to love better, more unconditional...seems so elusive.

Do ya think we get pickier as we age, or less picky?
Thats a hard one... I think for myself, I have become less in a sence because I am so lonely... it takes but a kind word to draw my attention, you know?? But then again, I will never put myself in another abusive situation... never allow it again.

You shouldn't ever put yourself in an abusive relationship because of loneliness....I know many do though. I am less picky in many ways. I'm not terribly concerned with looks as long as I find them somewhat attractive, there has to be an attraction. I don't care about money..these days less is more I think...I'd be happy living in a little cabin and burning fires and growing my own food if it were with the right guy.

Yep, I know what ya mean...a little kindness goes along way.

I'm sorry I must have said it wrong. I WAS for years in a situation that I would NEVER let happen again. It took too long to ... find the strength and courage, to leave. I smply meant that well, you get it (smiles) yes kindness, common courtesy, respect... all important to ME.

You are a kind woman missy (smiles) Hugz and happiness will soon come YOUR way! Weeeeee!

Yeah I understood what you were saying.. I grew up with that. My father was an abuser so I feel very fortunate to have broken the cycle. I swore I would never be in that kind of relationship. I never have...not always the healthiest, but I never got smacked around.

Being lonely is better than being beat down..physically, mentally, emotionally....which ever kind of abuse it is. I'd rather be alone.

Your a kind woman yourself and happiness will find you..and when it does I hope it stays!!!

I dabble with numerology, the tarot, meditation...fun stuff like that. And yes..big changes coming for me.

When I said to you..he is already there.. I feel like that for me. I can feel him getting closer. It's in my head, my heart. Sometimes I stop and ask myself.."Are you sure your ready for this". Cause I do feel it and after so long alone, I have to in my heart make sure I am ready for him...does that make sense?
Now I'm just babbling..lol

Of course! If you're not ready then you won't apply yourself... I thnk you are very kind and with the open heart you have he best be willing to take care of it for you!

I'm gong to play a game of spades. I can't believe I cannot sleep grr.. it's 4 a.m.!

May I say Lori, that it's really easy to think you'd (not YOU per se, but in general), never let yourself get into an abusive relationshp yet it happens slowly... then before you know it, you're controled mostly emotionally, and the physical is never as hard to get over it seems (MY oppinion, MY experience only). I just know, that finding the strength to move on when you are made to believe that you'll NEVER MAKE it without him... well mind games and WORDS Lori, they are very powerful... Good night my friend and thank you for all your advice.

Hugzzz
See you soon I hope!

nicely done...

Kevin... (sighs), coming from a gifted and beautiful writier as yourself, I appreciate that, sincerely. I don't know how to write specificly. There are far too may certain "kinds" of poetry out there that require specific and exactness in each. I only can write what is in my heart, what hurts or upsets me. Rarely has there been an occasion (and I am being generous) that I have had the experience or opportunity to write when happy. I am such a people person... it's hard for me now being alone after so MANY years with four children, their friends, the dogs, and cat... etc., etc.... to find myself set apart from all the I have known in my life, well it's difficult to be all alone and then try to inset some happiness in that equasion..? I'm babling. I just wanted to say thank you sincerely for your kind words. I hope this doesn't drag this thread to the forefront now, if i leave this message...

while your comments towards me are flattering, i can assure you i get beat up all of the time by people who believe in never deviating from the formulas or structure of properly writing. especially poems.

when i read things that clearly come from the heart and can express one's deep emotions, i have a tendency to grade on the content and the intent in which it is delivered. let's face it here, we are not and will never be professionals, but sometimes we do have a need to speak and be heard. nothing wrong with that.

if, along the way we learn how to combine our thoughts and make our points coherent, and even adhere to a few of the rules, i can live with that. it takes a lot for someone to open themselves for the entire world to see. you have done this and i, for one, can appreciate everything that, both takes and means. thank you.

There comes a time we decide to open ourselves to shed some vulnerable shackles. You have done this with this piece, very nicely.

believe in the silence of ones soul and home he shall find...
Beautiful write.... believe all is possible... love will find its
way home