If you died this night,,,tonight...

What would YOU hoped,,,you left behind?

Of all your life spent,,here...????




Well???

eh...way to hypothetical. I'm not going any where for a good long time.

SURE,,,'THATS'what I said...

NOW look at me,,,,,,,,,lol

all I'd leave behind are my boys with no momma...that's it

Have you NOT bestored within them all that you so OUR?
Have you not family, who know your sweet heart?
What of all your friends,,,to have within them, all that they shall miss and knew as for.....

Truly, I would remember our talks,,your humor, the bright out-look you carry as your spirit floats free in all your thoughts and wisdoms. Your dance by moonlit flames, the fire in which in throw out with smiles and charms...laced with sparkles and sunshine for us all......THIS,,,is SOME of ALL,,you would leave here.....

awww, I have a very small extended family..most I haven't seen for years. A very small circle of friends...I have lived the life of a "cave-dweller". My boys wouldn't notice I'm gone..be about it.

Your youngest one would cry off and on for the next two years, he would have two fist fights with friends over a joke of your death, he would regret your loss for all his living days, feel sorrows he would never show or tell any others,
it would be his thinking,,,in his mind he would have to always carry his thought,,,that your death,, was the day, he had to be a man,,,his child-hood lost,,because he never understood WHY,,,you had to die..
Your oldest,,,he would turn dark,withdrawn,,always thinking,,
it was his fault,,IF ONLY,,always racing in his mind,,,,feeling he
made this happen,,,,,and he would live-on,,,,never getting his, spirits repented,,,,mean,,mad,,,and all,,,because your leaving him.
hurt him so much,,,,,,he married,,,,,,she gave him a daughter,,he wanted to name her,,,after you,,,,,,then that same year, they broke-up,,,,,but ,,,the baby girl,,,was beautiful,,and she had your eyes..

My youngest is my twin soul...he did the CPR on me while I died..he felt and saw me leave. He and I are one now..

My oldest is already dark and crazy..perhaps my death would change him...

Trust me,,BOTH, would NOT BE,,,as they WILL,,,,
if you left, there lives would be forever altered...

And its great to know you have 27 years left....

Well, there are 3 of them...I have that 18 year old in there to.
They are not ready to lose their mom...so I'm not going yet!

I hope I left my kids with a positive attitude

all my good writing and journals, the best (i think) which I put into a book format. I think some would be very surprised. I would hope actually that had made a difference in someones life for the better. Also, feel at this point that I would be able to look my Maker in the Eye without shame and say thank you for allowing me the privilage and honor to serve You..

My boys and grandkids would miss me..very few more would notice my passing. Some might think, "wonder what ever happened to Vivian?" and shrug. My ex-husbands would say "Damn, we outlived her!"

I would hope that I left no strings to strangle someone's ability to do as they are convicted to live.

I hope I leave a clean garage and have fresh & cute underwear on.

I would leave behind the wonderful family that my husband and I set out to create 39 years ago.

My children would be left with the knowledge that they were loved deeply and raised by two parents that did the best they could to raise them with faith in God and the knowing that we would all be together again in heaven.

They would all know how to treat their loved ones with respect, forgiveness, and the ability to go on in life because they had seen and developed a knowing of what REAL love is and how it can overcome any obstacle that life throws their way.

Because life was not always fair and sometimes very hard, they will know how to use their inner strength to keep on going in bad times and know how to give thanks and help their fellow man in times of prosperity and joy.

I am very proud of the little family that my husband and I were blessed with. It has not always been easy, but when the chips are down, we become one strong united front and can overcome anything.

I hope that I leave my children the peace of knowing that I am waiting for them, just as my husband is and that they will know that I am watching over, protecting, and loving them just as I have here on earth.

I always worry that my kids will think I am a pig when they go through all my "junk".

This is very sweet,,thanks..

I plan on outliving my x's..

I hope I do...it'd serve them right!