Ro, I had my mammogram this week. Yea for me! Thanks for the reminder you posted a bit ago about October being breast cancer awareness month.

Any of you who have watched any football games in the last week and a half would know this too. The players wore pink armbands, pink shoes, pink socks, the refs wore pink armbands, and many of the coaches had pink-brimmed hats. The NFL is on board with BCA month.

That's because many of their wives have been diagnosed with it.

I have done that once or twice...

its funnnnnnn!

I was attending a party and was asked to wear that cute little brown wig that I sometimes wear....

I didnt like it.

You are a beautiful, strong, inspiration.....YOU BOUNCE!!!!

You all know im bald...right? Well I do have the softest little peach fuzz...heehee.

Well I wanna know how you feel about this.

Its not always comfortable to wear a wig, and I sometimes just go out freestyle(bare)on the head.

Do you think it should be an issue to anyone.

It certainly isnt to me....

cause....

I am beautiful
no matter what they say
no
words cant bring me down
no. -Christina Aguilera

It should never be an issue...you are beautiful!!! You have an amazing attitude! God bless.

But now just on the left side ....hahahhahahahahah.

I was attending a party and was asked to wear that cute little brown wig that I sometimes wear....

I didnt like it.

I ran into people who ask me to hide my disability by exhausting myself and not useing my wheelchair and walking with a cane or nothing at all. Because at one point, they couldn't see it was still excruciateingly painful as my joints and muscles were not rehabbed that I could stand was all they cared about. To hell with the fact that a fall could destroy hours of work much less hurt like hell and embarrass me no end.

I think it was because they wanted me to be done; be recovered. Sometimes that really is love sometimes it is just trauma fatigue. In and "instant" society where most people's experience with illness or disability is three day bout with a stomache virus or a sprained ankle longer more difficult battles are something they really can't understand. Not getting well is something they just can't comprehend at all.

Having a condition that can be fatal scares the hell out of others; even real friends who sometimes put their foot in their mouth. Since people are often thinking of their own discomfort (like those of us who have to look down the barrel of our own mortality are not scared to death too)they tend to react to that fear even if they don't know it.

Weather people who are not disabled (even temporarily) or not want to admit it they are a little jealouse of the disability because they see it as and unfair advantage for attention or empathy. Particularly difficult for women whom want men to want to protect them too.

Last but not least sometimes those who do have a disability sometimes do try a little too hard to over compensate or feel the light shin on us because of the disability. Personally I feel the rare time it is an advantage it is something one shouldn't have to apologize for.

I feel the choice to say "Screw it this is me! Take it or leave it" is always a personal right. The flip side of it is sometimes there are consequences. From others and sometimes your own. If you feel like you betrayed yourself nobody wins.

Sometimes having the right to be "off duty" and avoid the disability or being the "Poster Child" for it is only fair if you want to.

Not as simple an experience as it seems.

As far as how you look, well you know your natural beauty doesn't depend on your hair. Really no one's does. But darlin you are the exceptional natural beauty. So go whatever way you decide and don't apoligize EVVVVER!

If they make fun of you....just kick there ***.