for some people jnr and snr high can be a minor pain in the *** one must put up with while trying to have a social life on the week and weekend

for others like myself it was a literal living hell

at the time i don't know why but i just had a very strong hunch that i would turn out to be gay, i supose you could call it a gut instinct at the time.

as it turned out that first day there within my first 5 minutes there i just knew for a fact that i had a so called roving eye for the guys.

much to my personel shame at the time i just could not control myself when it came to all the eye candy i saw the other guys as bieng my first day there


whenever one of them would catch me spacing out like that i would just try to explain it away as being a one time thing that happened by accident at the time.

by the time luch came around that first day their was some few rumors going around about me either being a complete retard, a faggot or worse even.

somehow i just knew that the rest of the day would just get worse for me from that point on

i justwanted to close my eyes, keep my mouth shut, mind my own business, dissapear and if at all possible just get home without having to wind up in a body bag along the way

last period jym came around and from that point on the rest of the day just literally went to hell for me in the shower room

it seemed that for as much as i tried to break myself of that bad eye habit the more temptation and the hormones were determined to trip me up on the matter


one of the ugys noticed me sporting a hardon while checking out another guys ***.

words were said with the verbal abuse, accusatins were made and from that point my life literaly went to hell from there

they ganged up on me,pushed me up against the shower wall clapped me hard on the ears and started punching, and kicking, and hitting me in the face, the neck, the gut, the nuts.

i tried fighting back at one point only to wind taking a left hook to the face causing me to spin around and slam my forehead into the shower wall behind me.

my feet slipped out from under me as i fell to my knees on the shower floor with my being spread eagle against the wall as the other guys kept pounding the **** out me at the time

i was in so much pain at the time that i could not even open my eyes at that point that i jut fell over onto myside curled up on myself and just literally wanted to die

i could not see what happend at that point as i began to black out at that point.

all i could hear was someone screaming at them like a feral wild animal that was cornered and fighting for its life

by the time i came too and managed to open my eyes after myeyes had adjusted to harsh light all i could see was some athletic medium built black guy from the african side of the community sitting on the shower floor cross legged and holding me in his lap even while he held me up through the back supporting me in boths his arms and there i was just resting my head on his right shoulder bawling and sobbing like a baby

i msut have been in there for a good 40 minutes or so just bawling my eyes out trying to calm down enough to jsut breath normal like without hyperventilating at the time.

as it turned out the guys name was dwayne as to wetehr or not that was his first or last name he never did say anything to me either way on the matter

as it turned out the guy was 2 years older then me atthe time he was gay , confident and ,secure with himself on the matter and word in the hallway was if any one tried getting in his face or try picking a fight with him on the matter they would more then likely find thierself laid out flat on the floor with a black eye and a broken bloody nose at worst

when i asked him why he stood up for me at the time he told me that he had me pegged fro being gay at the time and that someone had to stand up fro me in a unfare fight like that

he explained to me the whole bit about being gay and from their we justed clicked as freinds over time in the long term going through jnr and snr high

if it was not fro him being there that day i would not even be alive right now

iam sure it took alot to post this...but kudos to you!!!!!!!!!!!

dang, that's a harsh story I hope you life has gotten better since then

Oh my goodness, thank God you are okay. I just don't understand why some people are against gay. They are harmless and they are human beings too with feelings....But, I hope your experience will open the eyes of others....Kudos to you for posting this story... and I hope you will continue on living your life the way you want it to.....Good luck to you and stay tough

I think knuckleheads like the ones who hurt you have a real issue with their own sexuality to go to such lengths to mess you up. It scares me to think that these guys will get married some day and breed. I hope that life treats you better.

U have to be who U are, I have a couple of gay ladies friends on here who are the BESTEST of people, live your life for U!!!!!!!!!!! WE are a family here and U are so welomme to join the community!!!

going through jnr and snr high was a total living hell for me.

in his own way dwayne was there for me as my friend, my companion at the time and was for all intents and purposes thier for me as a older brother in every possible meaning of the words.

the guy always watched out for me as my personel guaridan to the point that even though he lived on the one side of town i lived on the opposite end of town he would always show up to walk me to scool and back home after wards and i owed him a debt in that regard

the guy taught me so much when it comes tothe whole matter of sex and relationships and safe sex as well.

as it turned out he was entirely the dominant type and in his own words from the first moment he saw me i nthe shower room he had me labeled as being the submissive type.

eventually he and i got so close over time that i eventually decided to take him on as my partner in a SLT relationship which he was alright with for the most part

as we had so much in common with eachother , the more we opend up to each other the more i got to thinking that since i owed hm so much over time. the least i could do was all him to calim me for himself what with my being a virgin at the time.


i was willing to go through with giving him my virgin *** at the time but he was all to scared of tearing me open when it comes to the fact that th guy was hung like a horse and i mean seriously hung like down to his knees hung while erect


as it turend out that same evening he explained to me why he was not willing to go through with it and that his nickname happend to be double d for short and the fact that his alternate name happened to be donkey dick for obviouse reasons.

long story short the farthest i ever went with him was french kissing and heavy petting

in the end though i would only know him as a freind who was like family to me during a time of my life when i needed one most

Dude this is a heavy post. Is this like a way for you to give dwayne a thumbs up for having your back in school?

i don't know if hes alive or eif he's even i nthe states anymore for that matter so consider this my way of making my peace on the matter

wherever you are in the world doubled i wish you the best of luck and health bro

A cold Coors Light to you bro. Glad you gave the man his props. All the best to you. Semper Fi.

So glad to hear you are ok, and yes it must have taken a lot for you to post something like this Double Kudos too you. Kids can be so mean and the sad thing is it is still happening. Just be grateful for that guy getting there when he did.