MY DEVIL IN ANGEL'S CLOTHING

by ruddy

Thou art cursed dear lillian,I am diseased by your touch
I Can never explain why I loved you so much
You have been the worst dear lillian,a pox on true love
Your soul so tainted one has to wear gloves

I see the evil that envelops you
Surrounds you, embraces you
Much like a typhoid mary
With a kiss oh so deadly

Who are you woman , I have asked so many times
Each and every time I unravel your web of lies
Born of deception, our love, as fake as can be
I fell for your act, believed in your sensitivity

Caught off guard by lust and animal attraction
A she devil's kiss worse than any addiction
A freak in so many ways, hell downright nasty
At times I had to gasp at the things you wanted to do to me

But being with you it seems
Unlocked the very worst in my being
Enjoying the pleasures you brought me
Taking advantage of my naivety

Freaking me, leading me beyond the borders of sanity
Promising forever and all that appeals to me
Knowing what I crave and dangling it teasingly
The thing that real lovers crave, what true romantics desire
The chance to love and be loved, giving of themselves entire
But you were a Liar
Wanted nothing more than someone to stoke your freaky fire

The internet your playground, you could not get enough
Caught you mailing freaks like you, saying how you like it rough
Like a fool I hung on every word
From the fantastic to the absurd
Broken promises here and there
But was too in love to care

You had me so convinced that you were so true
I wanted so very much to believe in you
I was so blind ,ignoring all the signs
Thinking I was being paranoid it was all in my mind

How could someone talk so much of love but have not a single clue
As to what it means to love someone and caring for them too
It seems giving your heart to just one man is something you just cant do
And to think when we first met I was so sorry for you boo
I heard your tales of betrayal and loss and my heart went out to you

Yes you reeled me in ,hook line and sinker
Made me feel like I was your knight in foolish shining armour
Took my trust and my love so true
Promising me forever, oh if only I knew

lillian, my dear lillian
Who art thou dear woman
Where is your heart,does it not know compassion

A lovely thing, so sweet at times
but then becomes this ugly thing that I fear looking in your eyes
for that's when the darkness emerges from its hiding place
and shows its presence upon your tortured face
an image of age and misery ,abandonment and decay
reaching out to swallow me whole, I have to look away

so many times you showed real change
an attempt on your part to turn over a new page
so many times I gave you a chance
your tears and cries of forgiveness registered on my heart

to once again be suckered in by deceit and lies so foul
well im afraid its over now, your lies have taken its toll
and quite frankly I see no hope for your act has gotten old
but with three failed marriages I feel a tale is easily told
that you could never know true love, not with a heart that beats so cold

I shall leave you here but I fear there is lots more I find disturbing
And as you read this I picture that darkness on your face emerging
For the fact that someone knows you so well is not very appealing
You are not the kind to read these lines and feel something needs changing
I fear you are quite content being yourself , a devil in angels clothing