~My Brother~


To-day he's wearing a dark navy blue suit,buttoned to the neck white dress shirt,black tie.His hair is slicked with hair gel,he hates that stuff.
I have an urge to run home,grab his ragged jeans,bush shirt,hiking boots and make him change.
I'm thinking how much he would rather be abywhere but here this day.Maybe he'd be walking in the bush, or fishing, or paddling a canoe on a lake so still it looks like blue glass.
Instead he's here,having to visit with these people.This is a sad,dreary place to have company.I don't like this place.
He's not smiling.He should be smiling.A sixteen year old has alot to smile about.
People,when they see him,look at him,some say 'goodbye',some say 'cya',some say 'peace'.Some cry,a bunched up kleenex in their hand.There's a guest book to sign when you are done visiting.
He needs to be outside,where the sky is,where there's fresh air.So he can feel the wind and sun on his face.Being outdoors is where he feels at home.Not in a house,not in a classroom.He dismisses conventional learning,believes he can learn all from nature.
He has drowned in a lake.
No longer will he sleep under a blanket of stars.
I was working as a treeplanter the summer he died,I remember praying for rain,because when it rained my tears and rain would mix,and I did not feel so alone.It took me a year to say goodbye to him.

rain kissed tears

mixing my pain

no beginning

no ending

were you crying

with me

in the rain

Oh sweetie, I've got 5 and I don't know what I would do without them.
You have all my love, seriouly

he wasnt crying my friend, hes up there looking down on you with joy in his hart i promise.
you can go on noing he`s happy, it is you who feels the pain not him, he is proud, forever proud.
we dont say it ever, as you know.
im a loveing brother, belive my words he`s up there proud.

this is so close to my heart i can share in your lost love as i too had to say a untimely passing.i can only hope thier two free spirirs can be together doing what they loved in the outdoors

Beautiful write!

That was so beautifully written! I say you did'nt cry alone, all of us who have lost dear ones felt your pain.

Absolutely beautiful and amazing write...

nicely done...