Ohio sucks for jobs, ( I know, I am living it ) N.J. sucks, Virginia, I could go on for 47 more states. The point is you made a choice to be there in Jersey. You are not happy. Its not Jersey's job, its not Randy's love, that will make you happy.
Find a church if you are so inclined, sign up for classes at the local college, Volanteer at the local hospital. All these things will get you out and meeting new friends.

Short story, a friend of mine was a shy person, she didnt want to sign up her daughter for cheerleading, ( the daughter wanted to do it ) Because the friend was afraid to be around new people. I told her to walk up to those women and stick her hand out and say Hi, I am Nicole. She ended up moving to a new town across the state. And called me a couple of weeks later to say thanks, for helping her learn how to get out and meet new people. She loves it there.

When you feel confident in yourself, your decisions, your choices then you will be happy. I know everyone has already said this but only you can make you happy. Turn your mind set around and dare yourself to be happy. Write those lists. Do what it takes to commit to your decision to live and love and be happy where you are.

Thank you everyone for the great advice, I am going to stay. I am signing up for a local college so I can better myself an meet new people. I am also looking into joining a local bagpipe band to play drums ( did it before for a short time an loved it) I am a very shy people but I need to break out of my shell if Im going to make new friends.

I know Im not a perfect person an complain alot on here but it helps me to get someone who is on the outside looking in from time to time. I see that I do have alot of soul searching to do, an I plan on taking the time to take a step back an see what is it that makes me so unhappy, right now I believe its cause I can never finsh anything I do. I went to college before but droped out. an because when I do find a little happiness I run, my teen years where pretty bad, I was abused an got used to be treated like crap so now when something is going right I run.

Know this...you have value and deserve happiness in life.
I'm so proud of the steps you've taken this past week to honor yourself and I know that you are going to be wildly successful in whatever you put your mind to. Congrats babe...you are on your way!

You will make new friends darling