I just want to ball my eyes out and scream....

My Marine son went back to NC today..

I had to hide my pain....

the look in his eyes of heart acke..was so sad....

I don't know when I will see him again....

2 weeks of his...
tour..during his security...

he ascapted indurty...and possible death..

the secuertity place he secures....

was bobed....2 marines..were injured and air.lifted....so sad...for them.

For me..my son excapeted being bobbed and injured....

And they say Irag is safe.....

BULL SH*T

and ppl her wonder why I am out of my mind and deap depression...anxiety,panic...and struggle to work and up all night and smoke cigs..constantly...

They say Iraq is king of safe....it's a bunt of Fing lies...

safe....Bull F*ing sh*t.....

One great thing...My son and his wife will have a baby in Jan.

And that is a secret for 3 months.....

I just want this over....

Both of my boys changed up....schooling for History teachers....

They will be ausome with that....

and I would love them to be teachers...



I love them
so much..

I'd sell my soul for the ....

Hang in there

Military Mom to Military Mom, I feel ur pain an anxiety

god bless you and your family

GREAT BIG HUGS and tears for you. It is horrible when we can't FIX everything with the world for our kids. I will continue to pray for you. Hold your head up and know that it will all work out

{{{{{{Suzanne & family}}}}}}

God Bless and Much Love, to all of you!

You yell and tell um girl.

And I to am sorry he had to go back, that sucks.

Just know your BOTH locked into each others hearts and souls and NOTHING,,,,will EVER change that so your BOTH always feelings the others duress and stress.....and LOVE....

To your sons I say Cheers and Hoo rah!!!!

Life will find its calm one day soon..

I can only imagine your fears and worries. I want to thank you and your sons for serving and protecting us here back home. God Bless and God Speed. I will be praying for all that serve us that thet get home safely.

Sweetcheeks aka Kandy

god bless you and your family

ill pray for a safe return

(((((((((Zanne)))))))

No pity.....I dont think I could go through it either. I would be a basket case!!

Hang tough zanne. (((hugs)))

wow.....I knew I was a wreck when i wrote this post....hmmm..I was even told so....when I was contacted....of concern of course....

This is the first time i read it...wow....

I just really don't know how to explain....with out frightening ppl who have loved ones in the military...and the reprocosions...

But I believe ppl need to know..what can happen....

I was able to be on base to see him arrive.....it was so wonderful....but I was only with him for 24 hrs..then his dad had to get back to work and my other son had to get back to college..but it was different than when I was at Parris Island for his graduation....

because this time..he just came home from a war zone....I was so afraid for his mental state of mind.....as strong as he is....the mind can break very easily....

I was freaking out so badly because when my son arrived on base....went thru his classes to prepare him to get back into (sosioty) oops...forget how to spell that word...that happens alot..lol....

his wife stade for a few weeks....even though he went thru his courses....

he slept with a big knife under his pillow.....he would jump out of bed with the knife....thinking someone was entering his home....

that is not right....he also could have hurt his wife....thinking she was the bad guy....

so after his home visit...I was going out of my mind....of fear..for my young son....and I couldn't do anything about it for him to feel safe...and at that time he was alone....

His wife was scared to death also....

he bought a dog from another Marine....who couldn't keep the dog were he was....I pray that being alone...he felt safer...

so now that he is back on base....he will be alone till mid June when his wife arrives to finally be husband and wife....and still honey mooners..since they seperated 2 days after marriage..... he had to leave for training for his deployment....we were in pure pain and heart ache....

my concern also for him..is he drinks to intochication....all his militaary brothers are doing this to....

I am afraid....he will become an alcholic....many do.....and I don't want that for him...

So there are so many concerns....

I love him more than anything in life...He is my first born...and I am scared for him...

Then my other son Brad....is going into a 6 week boot camp next summer...he plans to be a marine when he graduduates college ...what he wants to do will be 6 yrs in the Marines...then he wants to be a teacher.

I am on a old wooded roaler coaster....not were Iwant to be....

Please ppl..get into counceling.....for coping skills.....

With this deployment....all the bad things...that happened to me in life..that I did get help for...all serficed....with this deployment...

It the beginnig....ther was no way for skills....it was working on all the hurtfull things that happened in my life..now is the time for coping skills....the only issue is....my counceler is leavin...so now I am on a list for another one....

I'm going to ask for a male counceler..due to dealing with males...woman are great..but I believe a mans point of view will be more helpful....

There point of view is different and I value there perspective....since i am dealing with all males...

ok..I'm tired...

Thank you all for your care,prayers and understanding,and compassion....

All my love to you all....

Zanne

Zanne.......I know its a noble thing to fight for your country......but I feel every fear you have with your son but with mine.........

He isnt in the military but if he was...........












I would go out of my mind!!!

I know...completly....read above...and get help...with counceling....it does help..

All my love to you.....and your military child...

I haven't forgotten u...I just go up and down....and it is really hard to talk about this..

Be safe....you and your military youngen....

All my love to you and your family....

Zanne

I hear you Gypsy....it's a life changing experence....and it may happen 2 times....both my sons....I think they are trying to drive me out of my mind or kill me.....lol...ugg

read ubove I wrote a lot....

now I need sleep in a little bit...

hugs and kisses to you....you are a careing and swet woman...thank you...for writing and being here with me....

and get ur azz back on my friends list..I miss you there...

Thank you all who wrote....it means so much...and i appreciate all of you...

all my love to you .....

and I am so sorry I haven't written to you....

??? how come Im not on there anymore??? did ya die and come back to life???

My Daughter is being deployed to Iraq or Afghanistan in January. I have to put my trust in God that He will keep her safe, give her strength and guard her mind and heart as well as mine. She is my only daughter....if anything happened to her ..... well I just have to keep my faith in God!

May the Lord protect and give your son and you strength as well.

STOP THE WAR!!!

These kids think its cool........like video games. Its not. They will come back changed........and you and god will have a hella time fixing it.