(this is far from being complete so, bear with me...)


i am a child of the rain,
the architect of pain

i am your suicidal pact,
the monkey on your back

i gave birth to the girl
you cannot quit
and i coach the guy
who treats you like sh*t
i scoff at your feeble attempts
to ignore me
while i prey
on your weakness
thrive in the shadows
and feed on your shame
kick you when
you’re down
and laugh at you when
you half heartedly
call to your god
for help
and forgiveness

i have an insatiable hunger
and you feed me well…

i am there
when strangers
fill your body
you recognize me
in that excruciating
hollow feeling
that massages your soul
as the last remnants
of what you thought
might be a
meaningful
expression
trickle slowly down
the inside
of your thigh
dampening your sheets
and washing away
your dreams

i am in every
first drink
and every
last drop
the high steaks room
and the penny slots


i am not
a disease
you didn’t catch me
i am in you
and you wouldn’t
have it any other way
i am stronger
than you
or any 28 day
program you
throw at me
i am your
excuse
you are my
playmate
your life,
my comedic script
and when i get
bored with it
i tie the
tourniquet
so you can
deal with it

then you can turn it over
to the greasy
white coats
who get you to trade
the fiction
of the
prescription,
one addiction
for another
affliction
pre-bottled
especially
for you
a one size fix
that will have you
knocking on
my door
before the
check clears
because we both know
the real problem is
you love me
more than
you will ever
love yourself
so let me escort you
to the pinnacle
then steer you
to the valley
rock bottom is my
sanctuary and your tomb
and the hollow feeling
i talked about-
that is my
jungle gym
where recess
can last a
lifetime…
and that’s
how long
i plan to
be here


kc09

Wow,So far,So good...

thank you mbm2
welcome to our little corner of the site

Wow. That is one powerful write kc...

no raised drinks to that though

thank you angel

the many vices of man, huh?

Satan says....

come to me
with your warmth
and desire

burning fulfillment
shall be your reward
for ever and ever
amen

"inspired"

One inspired poem there!

Keep it coming...can't wait for the next installment.

Yes, ditto Emmy, it's very good!

i once wrote something called 'chasing the dragon', had a quite similar addiction to this...i felt this very much.

powerful and gut wrenching and oh so truthful- excellent depiction

((( Kevin )))

Deep within you lays a man with a vision,, and thru your pen you captivate us with your sight,, your soul, your spirit,, you just Aweeee me


Beautiful simply Amazing

Thank you for your kind words

Thank you...do share

This is sooooooooooooooo friggin accurate! Is there a word that describes the shadow-self that is so dark no one can see it as it secretly lurks unknown to most except those who feel it or are allowed close enough to see and feel the fall-out?

Thank you (p)
I appreciate your input very much

Thank you my dear
For all that you are
to me...

Hmmmm I will have to get back to you on that but, I'm sure there is.

The devil of addiction. Very good KC

I reread it.

The self destructive dysfunction and addictions are caused by each of us and blamed on the world.

Very good.