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Topic: At a loss...
FearandLoathing's photo
Mon 05/18/09 09:03 AM

Well, good luck. Right now you are just defending yourself. I'm not at all trying to attack.


Sorry if I came off that way, it wasn't my intention.

lilith401's photo
Mon 05/18/09 09:06 AM
You just aren't ready to hear our opinions though... it's okay.

We've all been there.

FearandLoathing's photo
Mon 05/18/09 09:10 AM

You just aren't ready to hear our opinions though... it's okay.

We've all been there.


I'm taking in the opinions, and will follow a few of them. I just don't think my mindset will change until I'm at the point of being able to pursue what I want too. Should happen within the coming year, I should be mobile sometime within the next month after that I will save my money and probably move out in about six or so months. I'm going to Denver where I think I will be happier, I like the views and Illinois just doesn't have that.

lilith401's photo
Mon 05/18/09 09:10 AM
What I am saying is this is about how you choose to look at things. That is an action.

Winx's photo
Mon 05/18/09 09:14 AM

here I am...in a country that is currently going under, with a workforce that is shipping over-seas, in a place that my dollar is matched by change in most other countries. Opposed to what I was doing I can't really see the reason to continue pursuing this, matter of fact it is really illogical to continue this pursuit when I am already well aware of what made me happy...what I am doing now, is definitely not making me happy...


Why do you worry about the things that you have no control over?

FearandLoathing's photo
Mon 05/18/09 09:15 AM

What I am saying is this is about how you choose to look at things. That is an action.


You are right, I will work on that. Thank you Lilith.flowerforyou :smile:

FearandLoathing's photo
Mon 05/18/09 09:17 AM


here I am...in a country that is currently going under, with a workforce that is shipping over-seas, in a place that my dollar is matched by change in most other countries. Opposed to what I was doing I can't really see the reason to continue pursuing this, matter of fact it is really illogical to continue this pursuit when I am already well aware of what made me happy...what I am doing now, is definitely not making me happy...


Why do you worry about the things that you have no control over?


Because it effects me, as I'm sure it effects everyone in one way or the other. I don't like this country but will stay for the education right now as it is easier than if I move over-seas to pursue my education.

Citizen_Joe's photo
Mon 05/18/09 12:38 PM


Well, good luck. Right now you are just defending yourself. I'm not at all trying to attack.


Sorry if I came off that way, it wasn't my intention.


Fear, it sounds like you're growing some class. Of course it sucks at first. Sometimes, it can suck being sober for years. It's the part that doesn't suck that makes it all worth it. Experiencing true intimacy with another human being and being capable of forming a true partnership with someone is just one of the many non-sucky things. In my opinion, you seem more like a human being now than any other time I've seen your writings. It sometimes takes real work to be happy, but at minimum, it's not the illusion of happiness, and not a drug induced euphoric episode. Also, and as lilith suggests, our problems are 95% perspective, and 5% reality.

FearandLoathing's photo
Mon 05/18/09 08:54 PM



Well, good luck. Right now you are just defending yourself. I'm not at all trying to attack.


Sorry if I came off that way, it wasn't my intention.


Fear, it sounds like you're growing some class. Of course it sucks at first. Sometimes, it can suck being sober for years. It's the part that doesn't suck that makes it all worth it. Experiencing true intimacy with another human being and being capable of forming a true partnership with someone is just one of the many non-sucky things. In my opinion, you seem more like a human being now than any other time I've seen your writings. It sometimes takes real work to be happy, but at minimum, it's not the illusion of happiness, and not a drug induced euphoric episode. Also, and as lilith suggests, our problems are 95% perspective, and 5% reality.


Thank you for your comments, I'm not entirely sober though. I do still smoke weed I just don't smoke it in the volume I once did, I usually just smoke one joint 3 days out of the week. I'm fine being single, and I'm fine being alone I have no desire or even ability at this point in time to pursue a relationship. I've always had a conflict with the perspective and reality bit of people's problems, I don't feel that if someone is negative their entire life that they will live a negative life...in some ways that can be a positive to the right person, living their life the way they want. Choice is something I am seeing though, I do have a choice in this matter...it is just going to take time to be able to make that choice and I cannot move forth with that at this point because I lack mobility and money right now.

Thank you for your insight, it is much appreciated.:smile:

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