~Just Randomly Wrote These~
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Memoir

Sometimes I watch you down by the river.
The water sparkles in the sunset,
But you seem so distant, hollow, cold.
I wonder, pondering your existence,
As if questioning alone will give me answers.

The trees whisper your name,
But I cannot hear them.
The sun soaks up your rays,
And yet I stay behind in darkness.
I watch from a distance,
Unsure, maybe afraid.
Is it my own reflection I cannot face?

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Desire

Your slightest touch.
One breath.
My heart beats.
I cannot describe this yearning,
This unmistakable urge.
I need and I want.
I long, but it cannot be right.
Everything I love about him
I want to find in you.
But when I look into your eyes
All I see is a memory
From a past of another man,
One I believed I'd forgotten.
I was wrong.
I can't make love to you
Without wanting him.

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Souless

You took my heart,
Stabbed me in the dark.
I gave you my world,
And you turned it upside down.
Angry, with that bottle in your hand,
You struck out without realizing
That I wasn't even fighting.

So now I'm bruised,
Bleeding on your floor.
My body aches from
The wounds of before.
I don't know why
I'm still here.
It's a curse,
A sickness.
I can't let go
Because you still
Have the broken
Pieces of my
Shattered soul.

Will you be there
When I wake in the morning?
Or will you be gone?
It was just another apology
You've learned to fake
Along the way.
I take your lies
And I sit alone and cry.

This is not what love should be,
But I don't know how else
To live without you.
It's a damn disease,
Like killing myself,
Only you're the poison
That's destroying me.

I can't hide forever.
I can't protect you
All the time.
Someday someone will
Know the truth.
And then what will we do?
I guess we'll both truly lose.

This is the way it goes.
You took in my broken soul,
But you had a price too high to pay.

So now I'm bruised,
Bleeding on your floor.
My body aches from
The wounds of before.
I don't know why
I'm still here.
It's a curse,
A sickness.
I can't let go
Because you still
Have the broken
Pieces of my
Shattered soul...

"Memoir

Sometimes I watch you down by the river.
The water sparkles in the sunset,
But you seem so distant, hollow, cold.
I wonder, pondering your existence,
As if questioning alone will give me answers.

The trees whisper your name,
But I cannot hear them.
The sun soaks up your rays,
And yet I stay behind in darkness.
I watch from a distance,
Unsure, maybe afraid.
Is it my own reflection I cannot face?"




Profound write BCG...

"Desire

Your slightest touch.
One breath.
My heart beats.
I cannot describe this yearning,
This unmistakable urge.
I need and I want.
I long, but it cannot be right.
Everything I love about him
I want to find in you.
But when I look into your eyes
All I see is a memory
From a past of another man,
One I believed I'd forgotten.
I was wrong.
I can't make love to you
Without wanting him."



Wow. Painfully honest, yet your truth seems so freeing.

"Souless

You took my heart,
Stabbed me in the dark.
I gave you my world,
And you turned it upside down.
Angry, with that bottle in your hand,
You struck out without realizing
That I wasn't even fighting.

So now I'm bruised,
Bleeding on your floor.
My body aches from
The wounds of before.
I don't know why
I'm still here.
It's a curse,
A sickness.
I can't let go
Because you still
Have the broken
Pieces of my
Shattered soul.

Will you be there
When I wake in the morning?
Or will you be gone?
It was just another apology
You've learned to fake
Along the way.
I take your lies
And I sit alone and cry.

This is not what love should be,
But I don't know how else
To live without you.
It's a damn disease,
Like killing myself,
Only you're the poison
That's destroying me.

I can't hide forever.
I can't protect you
All the time.
Someday someone will
Know the truth.
And then what will we do?
I guess we'll both truly lose.

This is the way it goes.
You took in my broken soul,
But you had a price too high to pay.

So now I'm bruised,
Bleeding on your floor.
My body aches from
The wounds of before.
I don't know why
I'm still here.
It's a curse,
A sickness.
I can't let go
Because you still
Have the broken
Pieces of my
Shattered soul... "



Beyond poignant...I hope you are now in a safe, loving space

Thanks for your comments. I'm glad you like my writing. I wasn't sure if I should put it out there. Most of my writings are quite dark. I just randomly sat there and wrote those 3. It took me like 5 minutes. I love to write and have ever since my physical abilities/sports were taken from me because of my knee problems. Most of my writings are not written for me, but for others. Some are part of personal experience and partly for others who suffer worse than me. I have suffered severely, but I know there are others who suffer worse than I do. I just somehow always had the words to put to the pain somehow. Thank you again. The first two were true, but the last was partial truth and partial something I put in to make it worse. I tend to do that.