SO WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ IS A BLOG I POSTED FOR AN EX, SHE CAN'T READ IT BUT I NEED TO KNOW WHAT TO DO,BECAUSE THESE EMOTIONS CAN BE TOO MUCH SOMETIMES...THANKS FOR THE ADVICE...

Late at night I think of you wonder if you’re really moving on with your life. Sometimes life isn’t what we expect and I’m starting to believe that there is such thing as bad timing. Although I’ll never confess my feelings to you without a cause and although I’ll never try to revive what we had I have to admit that I do miss you. I miss the way you kiss me how you cradle my face in your hands and kiss me so intensely. I miss how you fit perfectly with me. I miss you sleeping in my bed with that smile on your face. I miss looking into your beautiful black eyes and seeing them sparkle. I miss the text messaging and staying up all night talking about our future together.
I miss the plans even the talk of the wedding. I felt I was over you but unfortunately sometimes alcohol makes me think and wonder and when I wonder, it mostly consists of thoughts of you. I don’t know if it’s because I haven’t met someone else who can strike that with my mind and heart. I still believe you’re the one and it bothers me so much but at the same time it feels so right. How am I supposed to go against that? How do I say no when my heart and mind say yes?
How can I walk away when looking at our pictures brings so much happiness and sadness at the same time? I don’t think you understand how great this love is. How do I know it’s love? Because it is unselfish. What really matters to me is you being with the one you love and that person loving your son.
I highly doubt anyone will ever love you the way I do, and in a way that’s comforting to me because I now know I loved you to the fullest extent that my heart could love. You will always bring a smile to my face even though you will never know why. Its funny how there are periods of time where I am okay and I’m pretty sure I’ve moved on, but then out of the blue my feelings come back stronger than ever.
I don’t know if it’s me trying to convince myself to move on or what the deal is. It does drive me insane though. The only reason I want to move on is because down the road I don’t want to meet an amazing girl and have you in the back of my mind. That wouldn’t be fair to her and I don’t want a replacement for you. I want a new story with someone a clean slate in a sense, but it’s so hard to even attempt to reach for that when you’re constantly on my mind.

That's very beautiful, and heartfelt, and she's also been blessed to have had you in her world.

Time.... time will help you move on...it's so very special, what you have written.

Thank you, well we're friends now. I'm okay with that shes been in my heart for over 6 years now.

I wish time qouldn't take so long lol.

Awwwwwwwwwww Im going to cry.......

No emo gypsy <3

It could always be worse.

I'd fight for her,but after 6 years of me being the one who's always fighting for both of us it gets old.

Love is a battlefield and if my significant other isn't there by my side, then we're both fools.

So you two dated since you were 15?

Is she your first serious relationship?

Love is not a battle...nor a battlefield.... sometimes it just fades.

yes.....I guess its time to turn another leaf and go on....

Yeah we dated since we were both 15 on and off. Our history is a long troubled one with so many obstacles beaten.

She was, I dated many girls before her but she taught me what love was. for 2 years we remained simply friends and she never moved on, i never knew that. but i fell for her again.

it didnt fade, I made my first mistake ever in 6 years and didn't get a second chance.

Exactly. I just want her to be happy.

I'm just focusing on my career at the moment, but so many things remind me of her and her beautiful son.

That's a long time to be in a child's life.... I don't know what to say....all I can do is send a hug from here, I guess.

Her son is actually almost 2 years old, she got pregnant during the 2 year break. He's an amazing kid. I love him so much.

Thanks, I get all teary eyed thinking about them both.

I'm too emotional!

So what is the advice you need??? Do you need us to tell you to move on???

Youre 21 years old......you need to experience even more sh*t!!! Just wait!!!

Pretty soon you will be 43 years old and on a dating site!!!

I need to know how to move on or what I should do, because honestly if my heart and mind don't agree I know to say no.

But in this situation my mind and heart say it's right, that she's the one.

Ilve never had that happen before.


I know I have alot to experience, but I'm stuck.

Hmmmmmmmmm I think it takes time....

You need to go through all of the emotions of grief. Maybe you have stopped that?

Lol I hope not. There isn't anything wrong with being 43 n on a dating site, It just wouldn't be for me.

Lol Im not here for a date anyways........Im here for the free chips and dip!!

I've gone through the grief, and then I feel Okay and I find myself back in the same spot a few months later.

I may be stopping it, I always stay positive even in the hard times, I guess sometimes I try to block out the sadness.