It seams that writing is what I do best, well, besides being there for people in any case. I have had it in mind to pour my heart out, but no one to realy pour it out to, mostly because I don't wish to bug my friends with it, and because I'm kinda nervious, and writing it out removes the element of stage fright.

I find that in the relationship circut, that if you watch others closely, you will find yourself question alot of their choices. Like a wonderfull woman who dates a jerk of a guy who realy dosen't care about her, or a Sensitive guy who has a woman who turns tricks behind his back. Thease things I find unjust and just wrong. Though there is also the relationship where two people dont get along at all and are to afraid to break up and end up hurting themselves more.

I'm only 27 years old, yet the road of love life has made me somtimes feel like I'm twice that age, then again, there are still times when I feel like a teenager walking down a road and have no clue what to do. Until recently, I kept thinking that it was all my fault, I thought that if the person was a certain way, then it would be perfect. I was wrong.

So wrong in fact, that I bore myself into a hole for a while and refused to come out, I would still go out with friends, but I wouldent make an effort to mingle with the other singels around (Ironic.) I finaly found out that it's not what I want, it's what we both want. I found out that relationships shouldent be 'okay we are together now'. To me, I found that having a companion, a Best friend whom I can share my life with is what I need. Need, not want, well, yeah I want that now.

You wont find that from someone who cheats, lies, or just wants to feel secure in a relationship. Something out of conviniance is not a good idea, nor do I find that to be real love in the first place. That actualy lead me to being in thease relationships where I never saw the sledge hammer comming til it was too late, and putting a heart back together, eather your own or someone else's isn't an easy task. it's not fun ether.

So here I am again, even though I know it's dangerous, I'm putting my heart back on my sleeve. Though maybe this time, things will be differant. Maybe this time, I will find my pillar of strength, and be a pillar of strength. I will find my best friend, my companion, my soul mate.

Just maybe...

yay go you never give up love will find you and it will be the right one this time

There is no promise of it being the " right one " when it finds you. But to give up removes any possibility of ever finding the " right one " in the first place.

brandi, you have such a heart of gold....


she's right you know.........

Yep, one thing, I'm not a quitter.

Never give up, never surrender... well, okay surrender sometime.

But yeah, three years ago this post would have been a whole 'woe is me' thing. Now, it's close to inspirational.

awww thxs

I agree, it's people like her that keep me from becoming a social hermet.

You sound wonderful.....you will have no problem finding the right one.....she is waiting somewhere for you right now.

thxs Rob hope i cheer you up you are a nice looking guy no use giving up i would never give up i don't look for love i just hope it finds me someday lol

Me... nice looking?

well, that picture was of my good side..

i like that side of you

Whoa... I think I'm speechless, and that never happons

Eventually....it'll find you when you aren't looking.

you typing not speaking ha ha

Okay then you left me typless . though if we were talking, I would be speechless as well.