"Melodies"

A melody ringing in my head, ringing on until it's dead

The sound truly never dies, just lightly ripples in the back of my mind

My eyes begin to see new colors, which bewilder my black and white world

Kids laughing and playing, prancing and ranting, slowly building up
sparks of energy..


Days have passed, Months have passed, Years have passed, Time has passed

Days I'll never get back, Months I'll never get back, Years I'll never
see again..

But the kid in the back of my mind is still laughing, enjoying a melody
that never grew sour to him.

Life really is served with a bittersweet taste, even still... I'll never
stop drinking
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This is a dream I had awhile back...where someone was asking me
questions...


"Inside the Darkness"

- Hey..what do you want out of life?
...To be a kid again...to relive all those moments trapped in time...to
redo everything....and get the chance...to live..

- How do you intend to do that?..
...Maybe..when I die...I'll be able to get that second chance..

- And if you don't?..
...I'll deal with that...when the time comes for me to deal with it..

- Is that what you truly want?..
...I don't know...it's hard to...really say...maybe somewhere down the
line I lost myself...so far I haven't been able to find myself...this
seems to be all thats on my mind..

- Why..?
In my dreams, are the only places where I'm happy...I can relive those
days...inside my mind...

- What do you see when you look forward?
...Forward...?

- Your future
I....can't see anything...I don't see anything at all...all I can
see...is whats in back of me..

- Does this bother you?...
No...it brings a smile to my face..

- Why?...
Because that kid over there laying on top of that hill...looking into
the sky is me...and I'd like to join him...

Join him Aloha...dance with him, throw rocks with him, play catch, and
roll in the long grass down hills with him.

Be the inner child, don't allow him to be forgotten, BE the inner child,
it is ok to see the world through child like eyes, it does not make you
childish.

Your innocence and wonder is not lost, just buried under adult
responsibilies and societies dictates..

Perhaps I do not hear you, perhaps I do,

only you will know..

Lee

((And I saw your profile name is Ahalo, askewed...Aloha felt more
appropriate, as we have not met before))

lol yea..I was wonderin about that..

It isn't really about wanting to see things through child eyes..I guess
it's a little more complicated than that. It was a dream I had
though...pretty trippy one.

Dreams at at times can be difficult to figure out
is thier ever really a right or wrong answer, Searching
ones Soul will inlighten your mind,,, Incredible Visual
I truely enjoyed

aloha, is this about dealing with responsibility? If so, I understand
it completely having a hard time with it when i was younger.

It has a little to do with responsibilities in a way. What it's really
about tho, is just me Remembering things and comparing them. The words
came to me as I was lying in bed one day, just thinking about things.
Kind of like a soft melody that you hear in the back of your mind, it
slowly fades in and out, but never totally stops playing.

So I'm lying there, in my present gray world, where things are
comfortably routine, although I wish there were more colors and
excitement. So I begin remembering my childhood, and it brings color to
my present world for the moment. I really loved life back then, although
I had it tough, and eventually I felt like I grew up way to fast, I
still loved it though.

So I'm remembering all that stuff, and I begin stating the time that has
passed between those memories and the present. Then I state that the kid
in the back of my mind is still laughing, enjoying a melody that never
grew sour to him. What I meant for that to mean, was that the kid in
that past memory (which is me), will never grow tired of that world, it
was never gray, and never will be in my memories of it. So I'm kind of
comparing my life now, to back then when it felt like certain things
were simpler as a kid, although things aren't always easy for kids.

Then I end the poem, with my saying of life. Life is always served with
a bittersweet taste. You take in the good with the bad, sometimes the
ratio sucks, but even still, you can't stop drinking it, you gotta
continue until it's finished.

The other thing I wrote, was a dream I had. It has a meaning to me...but
I'm a bit hesitant about sharing what it is. People have a hard time
understanding me, so I guess some things are better to be left personal.

Thanx for taking the time to read my stuff, and telling me your
thoughts.