Good luck to you Kitten. I don't know how I will get there. My wall is
pretty thick right now. But for the most part, I am happy at this point
of my life. Not the happiest I been, but happy.

it sucks dont it well i would never break your heart kitten

Well thank you, Raw.......I'm sure you wouldn't.....And Nerves, I have a
wall up myself.......It's going to be kind of hard to knock it down,
since it's got tons of bricks and cement.

Hey Raw, I just read your profile.......Sons of God, huh? I'm a
Christian myself.......That's a wonderful thing that you're involved
with.

yeah and cause where a m.c. we can get in to the out law clubs and
witness to them

That's a great thing........And you should check your emails, Raw. LOL

I know where your coming from raw, I had that happen as well.
The only difference for me, is that her mental health went all to hell
and gone before then and a guy she met in a mental ward took advantage
of it in order to get her hooked. When she checked out of the hospital
it was to run away with him. She even signed a certified letter of
abandonment giving up custody of our children to me. This was after
five years, and the last two of which all downhill due to her mental
health.
I hate to say it, and I know some will disagree with me, but at this
point the only way I can even look at her or talk to her, is to tell
myself that the lady I was married to died while in Iraq, and the one
that came back is a different one; You know what I mean? She is so
absolutely and comp[letely a different person now, that you would not
recognize her by her actions and behavior from when you knew her several
years ago.

But back to the original question, yes I have found total joy and
contentment once. You already know what happened there
I have found the opportunity for it to blossom out again, and I am
hoping it does. But until then I know that someday I will be content
again.

yea... i found it...once.. have 4 babies and had 7 years withhim b4 i
found out the truth.... but no worries.. i will find it again... i
hope...... hehe.. naw.. i kno i will.. or whats the point??

Dont worry Izzie you will find it again.


Who knows how long lifes road will be, before we find true contentment
along the way? But somewhere somehow, we will find true peace and
accord, we will find contentment sure as gold.

izzie

izzie

Izzie, you're on the right path now as we speak.

aaww.. thanks guys..

contentment. eh? by myself? Nah, I still want a man. But I
am content to wait for real love this time.

Yes, I am there right now...I have found my soul-mate and there is no
need to even contemplate looking any further! I am just here to
while away the hours while I am working and help keep my head clear
after all the doctor speak I have the privilege of listening to all day,
lol!

WE KNOW BARBIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suzy is the only woman I have ever felt this way about. Content
is the perfect word to describe exclusivity!!

((((Kim: "WE KNOW BARBIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:))))

with my "blinders" on more than once...lol...with them off yes more than
once :)