My son is coming over!!! I need to look like a mom!!! Or a reasonable facsimile!!!

Flip flops??? Soo you could hear her Cumin ??

well, you better get dressed then !!!

Is he bringing ET??

dont want her to get her feet dirty !!!!lol

Im toooooooooo lazy to get dressed!!! And I need 1 more tea to wake up!!!

and biker is being a lurkey lurker!!!

C yas

laterzzzzzzzzzzz I need to get dressed too!!!

nap, time for this ol' geezer !

Hi people

Hello everyone and how is everyones day going...

bbs... even bachelors have to do dishes

Eligible bachelors that is!

Holy crap! Its holy crap day. I busted ass and finished everything I had to accomplish and more. I shaved my face clean also. Now I gotta shower, do laundry, and paperwork, and get to work. B Back later.

RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrr

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havin

FUN

YET??????????????????????????

I'm at the laundromat. On the way out the door I slipped on the ice and landed on my knee. Don't think its broken but it sure does hurt. Swelling like a balloon and stiffening up. Called my boss and said I'm gonna be an hour late. Reminder.....sand my driveway next weekend.

Dear diary, whered I put those vicodens? Oh yeah- medicine cabinet/ safe. Don't you hate it when you gotta hide your medicine from your freinds? Freaking douchebags. Dumbasses taking your painkillers. Had one moron- used to use my bathroom and run off with my ibuprofen IBs out of my medicine cabinet every time! The whole bottle! Hope he liked the last bottle. I took out the pills and replaced them with baby laxative pills. F*ckin longhairbikers are terrible aren't they?

I did call him the next week diary. He said he needs to quit drinking so much because he's had the sh!ts so bad. Been sh!tting sh!tty sh!ts all week. I just laughed. Told him to take some ibuprofen.

Wow. So this is The Day you've been waiting for, all these years. Son has moved out, and is coming "home" to visit.
There's the "I will always be your Mom."
Someday, perhaps sooner than you know it, there will be the other Finishing Sentence. The one where he says, "I wish that I had known you, as you, besides being my mother."
It will break your heart and also make you love him and feel fulfilled in a whole bigger way.

Maybe, in his own way, he has already expressed that sentiment. I just know that the feeling of me being forever a stranger to whomever my mom was, besides being my mom, has stayed with me.

I did get to know her, perhaps better than either of my brothers ever did. I could not see the real person as well when I was with her as when I look back and consider who she was and how we were both trying to share more of ourselves with each other outside of the "roles" of life.


Dear Diary:

In retrospect, I wish that I had done more to make changes in my mother's life that she was powerless to make happen in her role. A son can do that, for his mother, but he must think of it on his own, and do it without letting her know that it is being done.

Someday, I will visit her grave, and clean up all around it.
I should plant something...somewhere...that will bloom and have fruit and seeds for birds and things. It will give back to the world something that I wanted to express.