It’s friday night
that day of the week
she can pretend
he loves her
pretend he cares
thoughtfully
she sits and stares
her mind distracted
brushing her hair
as she wonders why
she settles for
so little …
… when she has
so much to give …

really
it's no way to live
unfulfilled
utilized as a
weekly
plaything
his own
personal
breathing
blow up doll

when he first
came around
she thought
she had found
a kindred soul
someone
to know
who she is
who she was
and who she
could
and would be
given the chance
to flourish under
a warm
loving gaze

foolish girl…

with time her
hopes faded
her visions
now jaded
her dreams
withered away
under that
sterile
cold gaze
warmed only
when his
passions are
ignited
incited and
fulfilled
according
to his
calendar
his agenda…

grabbing her keys
walking out the door
deliberately
heading out for more
disillusion
confusion
emotional assault
yet another night
of manufactured
love temporary
as a wipe on
tattoo …

you’d think she’d know
by now
there is no raising of
the dead …

she heads down
the stairs
shaking her head
murmuring
to herself in
self deprecation
“there’s not
much joy
being the
toy
of a
...shallow
.....selfish
.......callow

… boy” …



dec 10, 2008

WOW, this is a very hard hitting piece. You are able to capture and put into words what many have experienced. You truly are a beautiful writer with a beautiful soul and loving heart.

brutally honest write

You capture that of which haunts many women. I myself witness my mom live the life that you describe here.

And the fact that people can recognize the feelings from this poem saddens me. Many guys have put out a bad rep for the rest.

But no one should ever settle for less, you should always settle only on what feels right and lasts. Jumping into first felt feelings can always be a taboo that most always leads to something like this poem describes.

It says a lot ... but most of all it says she made the choice to do it

Ya think? I believe that was the POINT of this piece.

Thank you babygirl! by the way Im lovin' that new picture! Whoo whoo!

We've all been there I think. Unfortunately hope does spring eternal even when it should not....thank you for reading and commenting

Thank you

While this piece does point to her making the choice we need to keep in mind sometimes making a heart wrenching choice is for the best. Many guys can also see themselves in this piece.

It says a lot ... but most of all it says she made the choice to do it


While this piece does point to her making the choice we need to keep in mind sometimes making a heart wrenching choice is for the best. Many guys can also see themselves in this piece.



Nothing is ever as simple as it seems specialguy. I'm sure many of us have been in relationships that were amazing in the beginning and then slowly taper off. Unfortunately, once feelings are involved, emotions tend to rule over the head. I, for one, still want to have the hope that things can change, regardless of what has come before. Hope does spring eternal in all our hearts if we allow ourselves to be TOTALLY open with our feelings.


Wonderful write sweetie

While this piece does point to her making the choice we need to keep in mind sometimes making a heart wrenching choice is for the best. Many guys can also see themselves in this piece.



Nothing is ever as simple as it seems specialguy. I'm sure many of us have been in relationships that were amazing in the beginning and then slowly taper off. Unfortunately, once feelings are involved, emotions tend to rule over the head. I, for one, still want to have the hope that things can change, regardless of what has come before. Hope does spring eternal in all our hearts if we allow ourselves to be TOTALLY open with our feelings.


Wonderful write sweetie



Exactly. Getting pulled into a relationship that appears on the surface to be the beginning of something wonderful only to find yourself wrapped up in it later on, and the other person is not, is very painful.....

Kisses to you Pam

While this piece does point to her making the choice we need to keep in mind sometimes making a heart wrenching choice is for the best. Many guys can also see themselves in this piece.



Nothing is ever as simple as it seems specialguy. I'm sure many of us have been in relationships that were amazing in the beginning and then slowly taper off. Unfortunately, once feelings are involved, emotions tend to rule over the head. I, for one, still want to have the hope that things can change, regardless of what has come before. Hope does spring eternal in all our hearts if we allow ourselves to be TOTALLY open with our feelings.


Wonderful write sweetie




you are quite right ... but I never said it was simple... simply a choice no matter how difficult it may be

Nothing is ever as simple as it seems specialguy. I'm sure many of us have been in relationships that were amazing in the beginning and then slowly taper off. Unfortunately, once feelings are involved, emotions tend to rule over the head. I, for one, still want to have the hope that things can change, regardless of what has come before. Hope does spring eternal in all our hearts if we allow ourselves to be TOTALLY open with our feelings.


Wonderful write sweetie




you are quite right ... but I never said it was simple... simply a choice no matter how difficult it may be


Once again, exactly the point of the piece.

Hi, I loved it!,,,just what Iam feeling right now

you are quite right ... but I never said it was simple... simply a choice no matter how difficult it may be


Once again, exactly the point of the piece.





It is a good piece ... did I mention that?

Thank you Mendy...dont allow yourself to feel like that sweetie...it's never worth it in the long run

Good write allot of us feel that. Who wants to be there.