Here's a hug out to my Bonny.

PS I'd love to hear your voice on the phone.

OMTA, Its as real an experience as any other. I've spoken to few people on this site and others. So maybe it ain't so great for dating, at least for me but I do have a lot of fun. And I have learned a lot about people.

Good morning! (((((everyone here)))))

Cathy, I'm the same way. I just don't separate my emotions because it's the internet. You are all a very real part of my life. I think about all of you during my regular day because you are all a part of my life.

I have learned some lessons about people and using the internet the past couple of months and you do have to be careful. But, the friends are made here are VERY REAL and for that, I am grateful.

Thank you Ruth, and maybe you said it better when I was trying to express my own feelings...."I just don't separate my emotions because it's the internet". I have, at times, spent hours thinking about something one of you said, or something one of you expressed was happening in your life..either good or bad...if I didn't care, not one minute of my time would I waste that way.

((((group hug)))) cause I'm too lazy to type each one out.

I understand "nasty experiences", I've been using the net to communicate socially for almost 10 yrs now, I just had never done the "dating site" thing. What led to this, this a.m. was I guess, letting it out here where I feel a certain comfort zone in being who and what I am w/o fear of any repercussions whatsoever... is... that in case I have EVER made any of you, that I care for, feel less REAL to me, it was a way of saying I would never treat you any less then REAL.

It would be, I have found, foolish for me to think that each and everyone I come in contact with has good intentions or would even care what they say or do to anyone...even to those outside the net.

Again, it was only to say that the people---the ones I've come to KNOW, or feel that I know, I would never treat you less then REAL.

the discussion I was having with some aol people was regarding issues that caused Kim to leave and for awhile, caused Ruth to want to leave. I may have not said the words right when I posted this a.m., they were (my aol friends), indeed, Bonny, trying to protect me in some way. And maybe I'm still naive enough in certain ways to need protecting, I don't know.

You know that saying "Once bitten, twice shy" Well, it is applicable in most part of our lives. Sure,we have to let others into our lives yet at the same time be vigilant as to whom we let get close to us. As time goes by we learn how to do emotional weeding, we learn how to separate the wheat from the chaff ( spotting bull**** from a mile off) I guess it hurts the most when you know you have been true to others only to find that that person has been less than honest with you, it is all part of growing up and gaining knowledge along the road of life's journey.

This is why I have made the following my theme,my anthem and I am sharing it with you,because I believe.





Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

And now, thanks to all of y'all, I have ruined my image of never being too serious for long!

And now, thanks to all of y'all, I have ruined my image of never being too serious for long!

Oh don't worry. We all know you're full of crap.

We are all children of this Universe and as such should give reverence to each other because it is so......... I now have a dilemma for writing my assignment for University, it touches on a similar subject "Questioning identity,class class and ethnicity" Hell, I could do that paper with my eyes shut............. Instead I have to answer it the way they want me to. Why did I bother telling my children they are part of the human race?

We are all children of this Universe and as such should give reverence to each other because it is so......... I now have a dilemma for writing my assignment for University, it touches on a similar subject "Questioning identity,class class and ethnicity" Hell, I could do that paper with my eyes shut............. Instead I have to answer it the way they want me to. Why did I bother telling my children they are part of the human race?

<---- Is in need of an image make-over

Yep. College is like that. Give the answer they want and question them not. Or fail the class. I took a Women and the Law class when I was in college. I questioned the teacher once. I couldn't get more than a C on anthing I turned in and got a C in the class. I was an all A, B student otherwise.

this is how real it all is to me:

I have been on a Traditional Roman Catholicism yahoo group for years. The moderator, Stan, posts everyday. Just posting information day after day that people might find useful or helpful. I have talked to this man briefly every week via the group for years. Yesterday he passed away. I would go to his funeral if I could. It's real and he is real to me. Just like you guys are.

Rest in peace, Stan.