Jeff, As a mother I want to see my children grown up and be responsible
for themselves. We do the best we can for each of them. I work with
disabilities of my own. Reach out to a school counselor who will help
you with other resouces. I have had help with getting into classes. Get
into a support group if you need to. You will find it will help with
your self esteem and at the same time learning that you can do anything
if you try. It can feel scary but the rewards are great! There are
programs that help people with disabilites. But you have to make the
move to find out about them. You won't reqret it.

I have no doubt that your mother loves you very much. There are eight in
my family and mom was very busy. She hardly took any time for herself.
Your mom does want you to be successful. Keep communicating with her. Do
what you can to make changes. We are always growing. If you ever want to
talk I'm available.