I miss you. Like you would never believe. I feel like dying without you by my side. I can't sleep at night anymore and I blame it on the cricket that likes to serenade me all night, but I know that if you were here and I could hear you breathing oh so softly next to me, I would sleep deeply all night long.

I don't want to do anything. I have cut down my work shifts from 5 nights to 2 now that you are gone. I don't want to eat. I don't want to do anything but stare at your pictures and hold your toys.

I curl up a pillow every night and hug it till I fall asleep, but the pillow isn't you.

Every time I go grocery shopping, it seems the meals for one just JUMP OUT at me, mocking my loneliness. I am more of a b!tch now. You controlled the anger and rage in me. Now I have no one to make me smile on my hardest days.

I have an exam tomorrow. You won't be here to help me stay calm.

I have to go to work tonight. When the club closes, you won't be there for me to come home to.

Since you left, all I want to do sometimes is just get in my car and drive. I don't know where to, I just want to never go home. It is so quiet there. Too quiet. I miss the sound of your laughter, my love.

I believe you are my soul mate. No one else can ever take your place.

I pray every day that I made the right decision in letting you go. I know you are happy with him. I know that you are laughing every day and are healthier and growing so tall! I know you are learning far more than I could teach you.

And I know that you miss me too. He keeps telling me that. He keeps telling me about how you brag to everybody you meet about me. You are making me famous were you are.

Just 2 more years, baby. I promise we will be reunited in 2 more years.

I know it is hard. It kills me too. I hate seeing you cry every time it's time for us to hang up. Trust me, he complains to me after you fall asleep about how you become hard to deal with and very angry at him when we talk and then you have to go. Trust me, if we could, I would sit here and talk with you till we fall asleep in front of our respective computers.

Please, when he gives you hebooks and neshikas for me, believe me, it is the only way I can give you these.

I love you.

I love you like the sky.

Very powerful... I wish you the best in holding on until you two are reunited.