...Tara makes me crazy. She is different. She doesn't scheme like amex women. She doesn't wave her defense mechanisms as a weapon like amex women. She doesn't wear her insecurities as a badge of honor. Tara is unique. She's beautiful in such special ways. Her smile is addictive. Her eyes are the most beautiful I've ever seen. She has the most soft lips I've ever kissed. She fits well in my arms. She is as neurotic as a bedbug. Tp people? Our interests and disinterests are about equal. It is true. I organize and she analizes. She wants to know the reason behind everything I do. And I tell her. And I appreciate her asking. I would like to get to know her better. There is many questions I'd like to ask her when the time and mood is right. If there was someone I would enjoy growing old with and enjoying life with it would be tara or someone like her. But in reality if anything I would just want her to be happy in whatever makes her happy in her endeavors. It would be very tough on me to become a canadian citizen and leave my life, my family, my freinds. To surrender my citizenship, my transportation security administration clearance, my $300 drivers license, all 6 of my combat decorated veterans license plates and everything I worked so hard for. I don't think I'd be happy riding motorcycle one week a year in british columbia. I would be alone and lonely there. But I still have feelings for gypsy. So I'm caught between a rock and a hard place.

ppffffft one week a year , typical American perspective ......

<<-- goes back to polishing the igloo......