I don't want to repeat the mistakes of the past. I try to keep my eyes open and keep focused. I know what I want and hope that I find it. I know that I am strong enough to keep searching. I am just wondering if what I want is real and tangible. How can it not be when so many others are searching for the same thing? That feeling that you get when you look at that special person across the room. They way they make you laugh when you need it the most. The joy that wells up at seeing that you are both individuals and have difference but it doesn't matter. The connection that is felt in silence. I don't understand how this is a hard thing to find when so many of us are searching. Could it be that due to humanity being so complex that there is one of a few of us that fit like a key and lock? If the combination isn't right will it not work? Trust, honesty, caring, kindness, compassion, passion, and respect are what I am seeking. Where are the individuals that truly embrace that? Cause many have crossed my path and claimed to have it, but fall short. My life isn't going to stop for this pursuit. I am going to keep going forward. Is that person going to be in my path? Is that person going to be willing to travel with me? Share my life, joys and love. Is he going to be mutually receptive to sharing his with me? I don't know but I know what I want and hope that I find it.

Tanya
10-5-2008

You will

Thank you, sweet miskim!

Thanks for reading!

I liken it to the analogy of being in a pool with a floating ball ... the mere act of reaching for it pushes it farther away ... but relaxing and being open with a little movement under the water ... the ball comes right to us ...

Relax...

Be that which you seek...

...and it will find you ...

for it must ...

How much I appreciate good words from friends! Thank you!

You shall find what your looking for if your heart is in the right place.

To quote Jiminy Cricket " When your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme..."

Nice write too.

Thank you!

You will find it when you least expect it. Sometimes we are so ready for it we don't make the best decisions on evaluating what comes our way. When the time is right, everything falls in place...until then we learn the lessons we need to in order to fully receive it.

Very true!

We all support you Tanya

I know and I am very grateful for all my wonderful friends here on the site and in my daily life!

Perfect ArtGurl; such a true statement, and one that is filled with hope.

tanya, you shall have what is already yours!! ~ the man who is meant for beautiful you

Patience and time is what I have at the moment. And I am content with those!

well said (S)

nicely written t-ann

Thank you!

I hope you find it, too.

Anyone who can write like that, who can be so expressive and descriptive and open in the way you've done, certainly deserves nothing but the best.