you know the ones i see on TV, loving caring family that are always there for you, the kind of family i see laughing with each other, share scary storys with each other, the kind of family that share trouble, yet are strong with each other, the kind of family that doesnt separate, the kind of family that makes life great....

Just a family that would or could have been there for me, a family that i know i could trust with my deepest fear, a family that can relate to my issues, a family that can be there when i fell, not to pick me up, but to encourage me to do so, a family that could spend time with me, a child in a grown mans body, a family that doesnt hurt, discipline is not hurt, you know, when they smack your hands because your about to touch the hot stove....

no that does not hurt, what really hurts is, when they dont smack you, then you find out the real pain by your self, when you live life alone, and grow up by your self, when you go home only to find that your mom is crying on the floor while your dad is yelling, that hurts, when about the only time i felt happy was when i fell down, and hurt my self, reason why, because i seen both of my parents together worried about me, but they where together, not fighting, yes, thats what i want...

a family that doesnt fight for the dumbest issues that are happening, a family that cares for you.....yea, thats what i want.......

What ever happened to predictability?
The milkman, the paperboy, evening TV.

Everywhere you look , everywhere you go (there's a heart).
There's a heart
A hand to hold onto.

Everywhere you look , everywhere you go.
There's a face
Of somebody who needs you.

Eveywhere you look,
When you're lost out there and you're all alone,
A light is waiting to carry you home,
Everywhere you look.
Everywhere you look.

When I was growing up it was "The Waltons." Sometimes we aren't given the perfect parents and we realize that and try to surround ourselves with loving friends that can help fill that void for us.

I've learned long ago, that life and families aren't like the ones on tv. I was always wanting to be the family like the Brady Bunch or The Waltons. But nobody called me in for the script to be read that day. So reality bites and is never easy. We just have to live it and take it one day at a time with the ones that dearly love us.