Hmm....Me thinks someone forgot his ticket for the 'happy train'....


Like Gyps said..."go find your happy"!!!

I am really tired of being misunderstood and silenced.

Please everyone note.

I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF!!!
I am depressed, I feel worthless and completely alone. Even when I was married I felt alone. But I stayed true and faithful.
I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF!!!
My pride is probably hurt more than anything, maybe like Against ME have said, "this just isn't love, it's just the remorse of a loss of feeling." holds true for me. Maybe I convinced myself I loved her, maybe I listened and started believing I am worthless from a young age thanks to inept teachers unable to cope with questioning their authority, maybe I listened too much to my ex that I am worthless and not good at much.
I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF!!!
Maybe I hate leaving things unfinished and I hate failing and when i fail I feel like there is no point in trying.
I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF!!!
I know I can love others, I love my family and friends, even my cat. But I have one hell of a time learning to love myself at all.
I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF!!!
Maybe I should just start at learning to like myself. I don't even know if I make sense or if it matters if I make sense.
I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF!!!
Thank all who are trying to make me feel better. I appreciate your attempts. It hasn't even been a year yet, and all I need is friends right now.
I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF!!!
That's all I have to say about that.
I am not going to kill myself.

thing always hit rock bottom before thing can get better. I have been there before it sucks but try to stay positive an things will slowly turn around. good luck..I hope things get better soon for you sweetie. your a good man whos just going thur a hard spot...