Woke up and couldn't feel my arm circulation cut off from my weight
Woke up alone again and in the sunlight it's a feeling that I hate
I just can't feel a connection with anyone longer than the sex lasts
The beauty in that moment just disappears too fast
so I drank too much last night and I'm coughing thick and yellow
Life goes from pure chaos to dead silent and all too mellow
so I shave head and my face go outside for another short lived thrill
It's not so much the being alone, it's the not feeling anything happy that kills

Monday morning drive away
sunlight shines on the fields green
Just another lonely day
So I get attention being obscene
I'll hate myself still tomorrow
look in the mirror at this mess
I got so many minutes borrowed
That all I got is me depressed

I try function normally but one foot just bumps in to the other
I strive for perfection and fail feel ashamed to even see my mother
I don't dare smile because it's cracked and makes me uglier yet
A building falling apart not taken care of tenants upset
When I pray I hear nothing back just more disappointment and regret
I could have done something better with the time than talk to a god upset
This self imploding formula has gotta change I can't keep living this way
So I'll stand up tall change what I can, I don't need a god to change it's all on me anyway

You write very well...
I enjoyed this

Very nice