Like a cancer spreading depression rushes through my brain
People hit the mute button I must be insaine
nothing to look forward to anymore so I hate in spite of love
turn to jesus someone says but I see no one when i look above
Happiness doesn't suit the ones with a broken heart
I am cracked, torn, immasucalted expected to have a new start
He must be something special, he must be the best things I'm not
And it will all flow clockwise down the drain to a pile **** steaming hot

Can I find my salvation in the barrel of a gun
Life gets lonely and I can't have any fun
been distanced from by those who were once close
I sit here cold bundled up he's taken off her clothes

Frankly this feeling feels like it will never go away
She will only get better I'll get worse drowning in my pain
a rat in the toilet trying to scratch his way out from the current
Did I do something wrong something to deserve this
self destruction doesn't help me get better in anyway
but if my body is a temple I'd want to tear it down anyway
It's not like I'm the first whose ever felt like this
But I'm going mad knowing he's getting her kiss

Still fat, bloated, and flabby no matter how much I try to lose
tried to do it the right way, I'll just turn back to booze
Crying alone at night wishing I had some loving arms
blood stained sheets,tear stained pillow inside my head I feel the storm
pitch black room a light goes by and I stare at the ceiling fan
If she had to find another then I must not be much of a man
mope around as a shadow sing to my self alone sadly
I am guilt personified only alive so others don't feel badly

it doesnt suck. i like it.

Darn good writing. Darn sad depression going on still!! (((((((((JTstrang))))))))))

It will get better, you just have to BELIEVE that it will !!!!

{{{{{{{{JT}}}}}}}}

jt love starts within. That is one of the saddest
writings. Start small with a smile when getting up. We will always have sadness and pain. We are the only one's that can make sunshine within.
Do something nice for someone. Hugs

Relationships set sail
One ship floats
When one ship fails

Please don't dwell
I know you'll prevail

As advice from
friend
to friend

I see a prism
Within your prison

A new vision
Outside hell



Keep your head up buddy.