i havent posted much on this forum at this site but today is a different day. i ache and cringe over being so disconnected at times from her and sometimes i dont know anything but the joys we had when we were together.. every day from the moment i knew she was mine (she turned her little faced toward mine and waved at me from our ultrasound) til she was six years old.

its a feeling of daze when you dont really know your child, like the moments of disbelief and belief and romance and truth and the realities that wash over all thinking parents.

i cannot begin to explain the forces that have us separated at this time. all i can really say is that she was perhaps the first human i felt absolutely committed.

it takes work to build a family and a life when you come from zero.

somehow unconditional love pervades all when it is yours to give.

all for now. i have work to do. God let her be safe and happy and knowing for me until i can see to it again one day.



K

love and prayers for you and your daughter

thank you brooke. its already been a year. shes turned seven and im working as hard as i can to do whatever i can

Although I cannot image how you feel, my thoughts are with you. I was separted from my mother for 3 years, with only limited contact. I just thought you may want to know that I never doubted her love for me and my love for her never wavered. I thought of her daily and my deapest dreams came true when we were reunited. I hope this helps you get through the tough days ahead.

Sending a big hug and warm thoughts...

one cannot be separated from those within one's heart
they are simply who we are and what we feel every day

special integral human

(((K)))

I'm sorry.

I am very sorry for the pain you are feeling!
I am sure she thinks of you daily and loves you the same way.
Never give up.
May God give you strength until you are together again.
Hugs and prayers sent your way

another day

and i love her all the same. i have so many little stories. and tales about family. life and death are all the same when you get

mixed up.

gratitude. pass it around. don't get stuck with a lace hanky round your neck. kerchief.

another day by the pool. another day at the beach. another rap tap too. music.

my father i implore that we play the instruments for those who sound appropriate to you.

all for now

Kate

soooo many stories

so glad i had so many days with her

its was the rightish way for us

everything we did and didn't own

we played and communicated so nicely without family interference



so many///

I know how you feel, sweetheart. I just came home from Israel after giving my ex-husband complete custody of our 4 year old daughter. It will be a year before I see her again.

I keep reminding myself I am doing the right thing by her. I am here in Kansas working on my MA and getting jobs so I can buy her a nice house and a wonderful life, but to do that cost me my baby for a year, possibly more.

You will grow stronger. Your hearts are intertwined. I know how hard it is to say goodbye. I believe that our soulmates aren't the ones we find and marry, but rather, our children.

Keep the faith that you will be reunited, honey.

Because you will.

I am right there with you, honey.

If you need any shoulder or someone to share your grief, just click on my picture and send me a message.

Much love and support,

HE

I can relate more then you can ever imagine. And it is not just one child it is 4. If you EVER need anybody to talk to I am here for you. I will not put my situation here on the forums, but please rest assure that you are NOT alone.I feel your sadness and your pain I really do. It is really hard to love a child SO much and not being able to be there for them. I cry myself to sleep over it every night.

well here i am again. i skipped lunch kinda cause i didnt know where she was eating lunch today.

i raise my cup to you dear Sophie girl however you like me to say your name you funny inspired smart loveliest and adored or treasured or yep daughter of mine

i love you too

amen.

and love yep,

mom
or momma

or yes im Kate



what else can we discuss together??

i dont know do you know or do i know. yep all our family and friends are interesting and funny. yep. we deal with them too.

sigh. ok yeah we can eat. i guess. what do you guess? am i laughing are you laughing

ok im going to take my first bite

spomgebob, you are the worst neighbor everaaaaah

or was it some other show

ok im signing off



how is summer vacation and school

I truly know how you feel. My 10 yr old is with her father in another state.